1 Month !

Still, still...everything, everyone are in my heart in my head, memory. Probably my poem will tell more than me..i'm kinda sleepy... Sounds poem! :D

Dedicated to AUBG Americans teachers and AUBG campers 2012 

This feeling when you can't stop thinking 

About people who you love

This feeling when you miss people

This feeling when you miss emotions

This feeling when you need some dreamer

Who will say who you are

This feeling when you want to come back

This feeling when you just can’t forget

This feeling when you are looking at photos and smile

Because you can’t cry

This feeling when everything has changed

When you understood how do not be sad

This feeling when you want to return this time

But you can’t do it now

This feeling when you go to sleep remembering them

This feeling when you want again to speak with them

This feeling when they first paid attention on you

This feeling when you thought shame on you

This feeling when it wasn’t a fault

It was only begin of new world

This feeling when you want to continue

You just don’t want to say, it was the end

You want to remember it all time

You are thankful for that, you were smiled

You were yourself , you were happy

Why do we need that …to be apart

This feeling when you miss people

This feeling when you probably won’t meet again

This feeling when you can’t stop thinking

You remember them all, all time

This feeling when you try to continue

This feeling when you smiled every time

This feeling when it was unforgettable minutes

Every time, every smile, every look, every word

This feeling when it was crazy for you

This feeling when you suddenly started to do

This feeling which you’ll never forget

I want to say thank you for all of that

You will remember this time

You will remember them

People who changed that

People who you like, who you can’t forget

People who you are missing

People who you remember in a bad minutes

People whose smiles are in your heart

People whose words are in your brain

People who you don’t wanna forget

People who you will remember and being like them

You won’t be sad no, they won’t like it

Be yourself, changes it’s not bad

You dream about meeting again

You hope it will be, just don’t forget them

People who you will remember in your heart

People who you will share about

This feeling when it stopped

But you thought it will continue forever

We have to move , we have to go

This feeling when remained only one minute

You say goodbye you try don’t cry

You hided your tears but heart cried

You are remembering them still and will

This feeling when every minute

This feeling when every person

This feeling when every place

This feeling when every song

Make you remember them all

This feeling when after these minutes

There remained only photos with your emotions

This feeling when memories make you happy

This feeling when it was unforgettable minutes

This feeling when you want to come back

This feeling which you will remember forever in your head

Just thank you for that

However if you read it, i'm glad to know that. 

Btw. what ridiculous i've understood today is that ...there is some spy...you know i've just told a huge secret about my twin who acting now in Broadway and makes my dream come true...how suddenly i found a theatre! dude THEATRE who invited to play there.... i've just started to think seriously about it after a GREAT INSPIRATION in a camp, so here is that..i'll show them what the drama is :DDD But I have to call them and say that HEEY I"M OVER HERE take me to the THEATRE. 

Kinda figure out with my future like Uni and so on...it's too complicated to study abroad..but who said that i'm searching for easy ways? 

And just let you now...I really feel like the only one originally Ukrainian who acts like American...huh..

And some days ago I passed a test simple test..and it said that my way of communicating is kinda American..probably there was some influence on it..Hah..I  have no idea WHICH influence. 

Seems like conclusion of everything what happened and what made me happy and still making by remembering all these stuff in my head ...And just let u know...i'm gonna put it on my diary so i'll watch at it every day during my last year of school..huh...i'm gonna be still ME in school ...:D
And yeah it took me years to make that... 

2 weeks!

 Only imagine 2 weeks...2 weeks have flew away. I can't believe in that really. The reason I want to write this post is that 2 weeks AUBG camp has ended, but I, I'm at home for 2 weeks. For 2 weeks I haven't felt this atmosphere, for 2 weeks I haven't spoken with an awesome campers. For 2 weeks I'm like into after-camp depression...I still can't believe that only 2 weeks I haven't seen all. And now for 2 weeks campers this beautiful place also has ended... How strange is that? I, We still missing everyone still remembering all, but after-camp also ended, like our. I can't believe. For me  it's like 2-3 days. I don't want to write here how I want to come back just believe me I WANT!

For this date I want to write which motivations, dreams, thoughts, goals gave me this camp, what i've learned, and what i want to do, and for what i'm thankful to everyone and hap that i was here. Of course smth. of this list isn't such a big dream but it made me happy, I've tried it first time and this is only for 3 weeks, I haven't thought that i'll try it next 10 years but I had it only for 3 weeks. I wanted that to try cuz. here I couldn't try it never.

Okay, let's start  :
1. I was happy, I was myself! 
2. I've tried Mexican and American cuisine ( guacamole with corn chips, pancakes(with apples, banana and chocolate), brownies, banana bread, burrito and more...)  I haven't skipped any cooking in a camp haha...
3. I was in Starbucks! ( Yeah, we haven't anything like that in Ukraine, I wanted to visit  that really a lot cuz. I know that in US you can see Starbucks everywhere :D) 
4. I was climbing on mountain ( for 30-45 minutes under the sun ahh...but it was unforgettably)
5. I was in  Mall ( Yeah again America not like in US but still American :D) It was so big  that 2 hours weren't enough to me  I was only on the 1 floor and not in every shop! But there are 4 or more floors..huh ?
6.  I bought scarf, designed like American flag  I wanted that VERY much, and I bought it here! 
7. I bought a dress from H&M  very cheap but it's a brand but i bought it for cheap price.
8. I've celebrated Independence Day with Americans Like in America! ( I used to do it on my own, dreaming to celebrate like real American soo..) It was American! We ate BBQ, played American games  
( eating contests ( ahh..this watermelon is still in my stomach. :D) water balloons fighting, spiting  contest and so on) So, American with Americans drinking to cola and eating hot-dogs sitting on Grass!!! Isn't it a dream?
9. I was sitting on floor with Americans like American, slept on stairs and feeling normal.. haha..yeah i like sit on floor :D
10. I've tried baseball, not big, but at least i've first seen, tried this glove :D
11. I was in cinema where i've seen 3D movie ( Yup, probably it will sound strange but yes I haven't seen 3D movie with  glasses in cinema, here we  go to cinema rarely) 
12. I've tried nuts with Wasabi hmmm... :D
13. I've tried peanut butter ( Americaaa) I always saw that in Am. movies, and i've tried it! ( but sorry i didn't like that really a lot but i've tried and know what is that :D) 
14.  I was drinking  coffee in class, on lesson  ( If I did it here, teacher gonna yell at me :D) I was feeling free! We listened to music during work...it's much better than serious and scary atmosphere like on exam .
15.I've written my first article, finally i've tried myself like a journalist making interviews, writing an article.
16. I've written my own skit. I've tried myself in writing some skit and playing that ( not attending  drama classes  =\  ). I've felt how it's like, playing, writing, searching for actors, and just organize all THAT!  
 But it was amazing I love my actors they did it really,really good.
17. We've played American games, AMERICAN!Such as jigalo, ( or how is  it called?), twister, Frisbee and some others i dunno how they called :)
18. And Ice-cream with nuts ( with salt nuts) haha.. at first i thought that i made mistake that i've taken nuts into my ice-cream with doping btw. I was right :D It was strange but Awesome!
19. I've chatted with real Americans :D
20. I have friends from whole world 
Isn't so bad, huh?
And more more simple stuff made me happy even for that we need to live ! ;)
Believe dreams come true and enjoy your life :D 

 

 Independence Day
Happy B-Day America :D

 Starbucks haha.. I've bought Frappucino with caramel ...ah it was tasty :D

 Sitting on grass, eating  American dishes and drinking cola :D
(On this photo from left to right 
Jose ( American, Legendary Man), Me, Katia 
(Ukraine), Vika ( Russia), Pavlena( Bulgaria))

 Spitting contest 

Skit :D

 Burrito :D

Teamwork and presentation

International night opportunity to show your country

Our big Family that I'll never forget!

3 weeks not too much? It's enough to make your dreams come true, to have beautiful and happy life, and so many memories for all your life!

Memories or 1st day in a camp

I've written this post when I was in AUBG summer camp, so I'm adding it now :)

 Left only 4 days and I still can’t believe in it. Time run soo fast. I even haven’t imagined that it will be so beautiful ! Probably, sometimes we need to listen to your heart, and go there where you want to.

It was hard to get here, I had a lot of tasks to do before I came here, like documents, visa and others and even if smth. goes wrong we don’t need give up, just you need go through these problems now. But in the end, you’ll have your honor. I’m happy to be here really happy. I can’t remember where I had so much fun, friends, Americans. It’s awesome really awesome. I remember my first day here, it was begin of craziness ( in a good sense).

When I came to Skapto.1 ( dormitories) at first I was confused a little bit, so many people, who is my roommate, where to go, where am I , what are they speaking about? Suddenly I’ve heard a REAL American accent. I’ve turned around and saw American who spoke to smn. ” She must be from America”- thought I . It was a brilliant American accent, and she looked like American. So, it was Katelyn.

On reception I’ve got pass card with number of my room. They told me 1 mean dormitory 1, 3 floor and the rest are number of room. I asked the first American, that i've met where is that ” Oh it’s in another building, over there in the back” , ” of course” I understood where is it, being here first time. I came to door near the elevator, and this Real American offered me  help. Of course I accepted. She looked at number of my room, and said ” Ohhhhhh, you will live with her!! She is very good” and showed me the girl who sat on sofa .I smiled to her, greeted and waved. That how I've Pavlena. :3 Then Katelyn “seriously” looked at me and asked ” Are you good?” =D ” I hope so” answered I. =D

Then she showed me the way to my room. Then I found out that she is a drama teacher. Awwwwww….( I was upset that I haven’t chosen this subject, because I wanted to but I hadn’t.)

Me and my new roommate acquainted with each other in room. And the most ridiculous things are that we both left-handed and we are living in the same room =D I was shocked and happy. Was it happenstance ?

” Twiiiins”. We called each other like that because it’s really ridiculous Then I couldn’t choose my bed and my table I was confused. But I did it. Then we both were interesting who will be our 3rd roommate, and we foundout  that we haven’t only one chair in our room. We asked for chair on the ground floor, And man gave us chair just from the place where he stood. Uhhmmm…okay.

After some minutes we decided to go to the ground floor and acquainted with others. We sat on sofa near Americans, I was so excited Real Americans aaahhh, I can speak with them =D

I was interested who will be my teachers. After first sentence with Katelyn I understood what camp would be like. It was funny dialogue ( or serious) with her about where is she from and so on. “Oh, journalism will be with Adrienne.She is awesome. Oh, she is behind you” by this way I’ve got acquainted and first I have seen my future teacher Adrienne. Others I couldn’t find( On the left side sat very cute American. Presentation skills WHY? I also haven”t chosen this subject Her name is Nichole and she is from Wisconsin. I dunno but I've noticed  some differences between Americans from different states like accent, appearance. She told me about her state that their I don’t remember football? team has hat form of cheese, because there are a lot of delicious cheese )

I was shocked, confused. It was smth. another, strange feelings, Americans. After me and my new Friend decided to go to our room. There we’ve met our neighbor from Montenegro. Stop. I’m really good in geography. I’ve heard any country strange, but this? So, I was confused again. Where is that? Aaaaaannndddd after couple days I’ve recognized It’s Chernogoriya

Dinner time. All students, Americans met in dorm. and we went to University. “Why so far? ” was my first thought. But now It’s not so far, it’s good time for speaking with friends during walking I was scared that I won’t find right way next day, but we’ve met with girl from Greece. And she was second time here , so she was our hero.

Then I can’t remember anything special. But first day was full of emotions and memories.