The Last Day on Earth

 I still can't realize and believe, that  it  happened to me. It's like a dream.....

  Thursday, December 20th...2012 
Marilyn Manson gives the first concert in Kiev.


1.30 PM
Outside is -20C but I had to to try to find hotel where the all band stayed. I knew the name of hotel..but i was in another city. As soon as I realized I've gone the completely  wrong way....thanks to map in city i found the right way and since 20 minutes i was nearby 5* Hotel.

There were couple people who also waited for band....And as I came to hotel entrance as AT THIS VERY MOMENT suddenly Fred ( bassist) came out. I was like ...Oh my God....I'm in time....I couldn't believe..I saw at least someone.
- Сan you sign it please?
- Sure.....it's cold
-Yeahh....Thank you !
I asked him for autograph...then everybody asked for mediator...I also asked for one. I was shocked and happy. I got smth. yeeaaahh.... I knew that, i didn't get my pens, cuz i had one....and this my only pen just fallen and has broken down. Okay

After some minutes appeared  Jason (drummer ) from the corner. I asked for his autograph too....He even had his own gold highlight. And also he gave another mediator. Woohhooo...
Then other fans have gone away and i stayed near hotel with other fan. there were only two of us.
It was very very cold...to stay outside all the time..and waited for band...Then their staff...the guy who is responsible for technic came out. I was staying near door...waited ..waited.. The other fan knew him and they had a small talk..then he said...-oh..cold? ....Are you here for the same ? .....Then he gave me another one mediator....Thank you....But it was a big surprise for me. 

It was soooo colddd....we entered to hotel and  sat inside...Oh...this hotel was really luxury...
We sat like that for about 2 hours

3.30PM
We were sitting on sofa....In front of us sat this technic guy......after 5 minutes he came to me and gave me Autograph of Marilyn Manson....I COULDN'T BELIEVE OH. MY GOSH Oo...IT was too much that I could imagine...THANK YOU .... I was sitting, i was shocked, i was happy...."Where am I ? " I couldn't imagine about  Marilyn Manson's autograph...but i got it Oo
- Thank you so much...you made me very happy...can you say what does this card mean?
- Welcome...oh, this card is in vip pocket..but someone leaved it..so you are very lucky that you got it.


I 'm VERY lucky....I COULDN"T IMAGINE ..

4.00PM
We knew that Mr. Manson wasn't in hotel..cuz. other fans said that they've seen him already in another place. I waited for Twiggy Ramirez ...cuz. i hadn't seen him yet.....


- Oh, my gosh is this Manson ?
O_O...O_O ....WHAT?
- Marilyn Manson!!
Where what????.....

ahhhhh..I knew  it..he had to be still in hotel...but ..but ..what?it was HIM!!?
We came to him closely..I saw him FACE TO FACE....just like that Marilyn Manson..He was with Lindsay and security...But i saw him..very closely...Oo.Well..he was in a hurry...and we knew that he didn't give any autographs photos if you haven't golden ticket..But it's quite understandable..Anyway i was too shocked to meet him...Still..can't realize I saw Marilyn Manson....He...who is such a big rock star..he who made this music...he whose songs concerts were sometimes forbidden.and how in 90th there were a lot of protests....I can't believe ...It was a dream.

Brian was in green  cap, black coat, black jeans, black t-shirt. and brown  sunglasses ...How don't they get cold it's -20C ! ??Oh, Americans...  I saw him so closely...Was it real? Also he shook the hand of other fan..just near me...he looked at me ....And they have gone away...BUT WE'VE JUST SEEN MARILYN MANSON...WE WERE TOOOOOOO SURPRISED... shock.

We were trying to take photo with him, i don't know why, but it was like reflex, so I asked for an autograph ( i forgot tht i've already have them).
then Marilyn Manson looked at me, then on guy nearby me, and guess what. Brian shaked the hand of this guy....well he might not to wash his hand after shaking hands with Manson.

I clearly can remember that Marilyn Manson said to us :

- See you afterwards. 

And he disappeared in the exit of the hotel. Of course, outside were some jpurnalist, and paparazzi. It was so strange to touch this, another world, the world of popularity.

What can I say....is that Marilyn looks really really awesome....He isn't fat at all...as a lot of people say...He's  handsome.

Then we came out from hotel....We still waited  for Twiggy....

4.30 pm
The band started to gather. We came in hotel again xD ....This time i asked them for some pictures ...cuz i hadn't them...only their autographs..
Oh, they are very very kind and polite., and handsome, and awesome ..etc.  No, really they weren't like  "stars" , they were quite simple people. That surprised me a bit ....:) We asked for another one mediator...this time it was Twiggy's. Oh, yeaahh....

And we started to take pictures..i was so still in shock that i only could say ....thank you so much, please....
But FINALLY  Twiggy came ...FINALLY  ..We've been waited for him  for a lot of hours ...
We asked for photo..And I realized...THE LAST CHANCE I HAD TO SAY SMTH. MORE THAN PLEASE...
- Ohh..you are real..
- Noooo..I'm not...I've made from .....from ...mmmmm
- from gold 
-plastic...I've made from plastic and gold...
Oh, he's cute ...:D
Then we stood nearby and i was just repeating to myself all the time...YOU RIGHT NOW  just realize with WHO you are standing nearby...heey..heyy...

Then they came out from the hotel...and we also have gone away... I was dancing on street, i couldn't imagine what just happened....fairytale.

5.30 pm

I went to the center with a  lot of shops etc...Then i went to McFoxy to eat a little bit ..cuz.from the morning i haven't eaten smth at all. I was repeating screaming...i've seen them face to face....it's a dream..HUUUGE DREAM...it's real.....wooaahhh.... 

Guess what..then i checked Fred's instagram and they or only Fred  were there ....some hours ago.. In this place. while i was sitting in hotel ..In McFoxy..cuz. he took picture of this stand..But ....oh, no it's dream... 

Then i've lost again in city cuz it was too dark outside and i also didn't know this city well....Somehow i found the right way....thanks to map in my broken mobile. ... 

7.00 pm 

 I came to Sport Palace where the concert had to be. After double security check ..finally i came on. There weren't a lot of people. I was walking on 1st floor ...came to stand with t-shirts and these stuff....and it seemed to me..that i've seen this staff man ....i wasn't sure but i was surprised to meet him again. 

Then i stood in palace and just talking to mobile hone......AND guess what.... I've received another one mediator Oo...I was just talking ......omg..THANK you.......I was very surprised that he recognized me and gave me Twiggy's mediator..:))) 

In conclusion..All Marilyn Manson's  stuff, band members and Brian too are very very good, kind and understandable people. They are not rude or angry. They are helpful and not like "cool stars". So, everything was false...they are really another and they aren't aggressive or so on...They are very very kind and generous ....I can say only good words about them..I have a really good impression.

7.30 pm
I got my place in concert. And concert started with warming-up ...A lot of people were against her on concert by the way..on her 4 song..All started to scream " Manson, Manson' ....
Then staff changed the stage for Marilyn....Big black curtain..
Ooooonnneee...twwwooooo.....yeaahh...ooonnnee...twwwoooo...
Haha..i've been waiting for this guy..his ooooooooneeeee..twwwoooo....:D

8.30 pm
Hey Cruel World...
It began ! ....
All sector stood up!! We weren't sitting at all....We stood all concert ...all! and danced, sang....yes!
I really liked it, we were quite active, and it was good to be in sector cuz actually it was like fan zone ....cuz. we stood all together but there weren't any slam etc...it was good to see Marilyn on stage...good view ...good audience..no broken ribs...awesome !
Also, the audience was  very different...there were teens and older people who are in their 40s. It was so strange to see band on stage in their suits...when i saw them in jeans, t-shirts ....

  

Here is set-list
1. Hey, Cruel World…
2. Disposable Teens
3. The Love Song
4. No Reflection
5. mOBSCENE
6. The Dope Show
7. Slo-Mo-Tion
8. Rock Is Dead
9. Personal Jesus
10. The Last Day On Earth
11. Sweet Dreams
12. Coma White
13. Antichrist Superstar
14. The Beautiful People
15. King Kill 33 (intro)
16. Irresponsible Hate Anthem

Concert was amazing, Marilyn Manson...changed his suits all the time...decorations...marvelous show. By the way, i'd like to say that Manson has a good show, and good voice..he's artistic .....Oh, what am i saying...He's Marilyn Manson..

Crowd was singing all the time....Many time Manson said Kiev, thank you etc. I was singing, dancing, yes it's rock..Awesome atmosphere !

What was a huge surprise is when Marilyn sang The Last Day on Earth
- Oh, i know it's the last day on Earth ....
It was acoustic version..he sang + Twiggy's guitar...Beautiful... Marilyn took black cloth on his face and sang this way. The last day on Earth....
Coma white was also awesome...Long black coat, black hat, snow .....

Sweet dreams...as all fan zone had small bright green flashlights ..It was so beautiful...flashmob. Darkness and flashlights..Sweet dreams are made of this ....

......Personal Jesus ...Rock is dead Everybody sang rich out and touch faith...energy ....huuuge energy

Then Antichrist superstar... Special tribune where sang....laid Manson..

Everybody clapped in tact and repeated Hey, hey........ hey


Also, Marilyn Manson was really really artistic..well he also laid on everything he could to..and did everything he wanted to..

he laid on speaker(column) and lying on his back put his feet behind his head...

Aw, also his red suit as priest...

Fred was jumping all the time playing guitar, Twiggy was artistic...
Darkness.....Marilyn Manson appeared holding 4 big red clothes

- Are you ready, the beautiful people ...

Hey you ....everybody sang again, danced, energy...


The end.
- It's the last day on Earth, and i think you deserve another one song
We love hate
we hate love
We love hate
we hate love
We love hate
we hate love
Crowd repeated all the time....Energy...and yes ...Irresponsible hate Anthem...
No words to describe this atmosphere!It was such a pleasure to hear 2 more songs..cuz. in Russia they didn't sing them...:333 Moreover, song The Last Day on Earth was sung only TWICE First time in December, 1998....And Second time in Kiev December 2012. Isn't it cool, huh? To be witness of such a big event.

And also in the end of concert MM made the sign of the cross of all of us as priest ...so cute :3
In the end the rest of band throw mediators, papers, bottles etc. into the crowd.

After concert some fans stayed, and waited for MM for 2 hours till midnight. He waved to them, smiled, and said good bye..But i was already in subway listening to MM in my mp3.

This day was one of the happiest days in my life...I still still can't believe in everything,,,and i can't realized...i can''t..
Thanks to Mr. Manson for this big show, and cheap prices
Hope to see them again in Spring ....

November+December

 I think it will be better to write a list of thing that happened to me....
Well, 1. I've already conveyed documents in American Uni in Bulgaria...well...half of them ;)
It's kind of strange to apply there i dunno, i will hope for scholarship and fin.aid but will see...
   Ridiculous situation...well i love Kiev cuz. it makes me think about a lot of important stuff that happened...And this time i was at the same place ...where i visited concert of my favorite band, where i participated in exchange program to US, where is Bulgarian department i got visa there for AUBG camp....And distance between these buildings like  200 meters  and toooo much sweet  memories :33
   So, this time i was walking down street and suddenly i've seen Billa market...In Bulgaria we used to go there...i even didn't know that we have these shops, and nearby Prego...OMG PREGO..Long pizza....cafe nearby dorms in camp..:3333 Pretty cool, huh?

   Anyway, 1 week to prepare all documents till deadline !! Only 1 week ...20 pages of documents,only hardcore ...Feel like a hero :333 Essay, marks, Diplomas....woaahhh....I just made noise all over the school Duuude I need documents !!! ...Recommendations..!! ....And 1 point for me ...
1 recommendation letter from American ^^...yyyaaayyy....

   2. I've successfully passed aubg screening test smth. like mini grammar test ...And started my preparation for TOEFL ans SAT....wooaahh....

3. Again, Again ....my life proved that ...there is nothing impossible..and nothing happens just llike that...At the beginning i've failed school english olympiad ..was upset ..okay...well we had the same place and we both really good in english...same level..but not my day.....So, i hadn't to go to city olympiad....NO....I realized that...cuz. nothing can happen...documents are ready..results are ready..bye bye...As one evening 2 week before olympiad my teacher calls me and says that i have a chance to go there ... I was too shocked and perhaps till 2 day befor olympiad couldn't realized what had happened.... It was impossible!...Well, the results aren't soo cool...cuz. not my day...writing section 'i've written awesome with quotes, proverbs ...good but ...i've understood topic differently a little bit soo..in conclusion i got 0 points..that declined my chances to win smth...okay...it's not the end

   4. We had the week of foreign languages...Our stand was about famous people of Great Britain..And guess what...I've written about Princess Diana, Depeche mode, Queen and Hurts ..yyyayyy..so British ^^

5. Have a lot of study with history,i'm writing the biggest summaries.

6. It's snowing!! And it's -10C....Huuuhh.....

7. I've changed my point of view about some my past friends..and understood how stupid i was when i helped them..i thought these people are good but at the end they betrayed me and told false facts about me... BUT i have another friend ..and I do believe she's really a good and honest person....

8 I understood that most of my close friends are abroad and far away from me...

9. This week every night i have nightmares EVERY NIGHT ....hmmm..But at 7 day I had a beautiful, marvelous dream about and with Wisconsin...
Oh, this feeling when u truly happy in ur dreams ...I was like crazy ...crazy dream but full of good emotions and Cute American :33333333 Wisconsin, smile......Yyyaaayyy

10.  In general i'm obsessed with the idea how to pass all exams for aubg successfully ...

What has happened?

What has happened, I wonder? - That's the favorite words of my english teacher when smb. comes late. But the reason i'm writing now...is uhmm completely another.

  U know  these couple days I was completely shocked! How we changed, how our nation has changed, WHY? Because, I know we had soooo manyy traditions, we are one of the most generous nation ...but we've changed. The main problem here now is two language...uhmm u know official language is Ukrainian but we speak russian....cuz. of history ..u know, right?
But i was soo shocked ..okay yesterday we were in school canteen ..and uhm. smn. haven't paid for a tea..just cup of tea...(which costs here 0.25 hrn, it's like i even don't know like 2-3 coins or so, i'm not good at it ....anyway this IS VERY VERY CHEAP) But this worker started to yell all around and she was screaming A LOT ...CUZ OF  1 CUP OF TEA? And then she took the cup and poured on the floor CUZ OF  1 CUP!?

And it's not all....in buses we have this system like for students public transport is cheaper if u have documents which will prove that u r student...Well i have this kind of document, everything is fine..But worker found smth she didn't like BUT IT WAS RIGHT AND COMPLETELY LEGAL  and said to pay full price, this document is not real bla bla, how i can prove it ...WHY AND HOW ? WHY HAS IT HAPPENED? WHY?  and she was yelling on me...JUST CUZ OF  1.0 HRN  people ready to yell on u and say to everything that u want to....RUDE. She was screaming on me for all bus..but i was trying normally explain it's normal document and everything is fine...Now u know I remember everything and want to cry cuz...this is unfair..and not really pleasant....HOW PEOPLE FOR SUCH LITTLE MONEY FOR FEW COINS...READY TO YELL AND TO ...ugh it's too difficult.

I'm shocked, upset and ....this feeling of unfair...

But I want to say we are really good, generous nation...we have so many traditions...We meet our guests with bread and salt..we always ready to meet any guests...But the government of sowjet union just destroyed our REAL   nation. Because of a huge pressure and even ban for anything Ukrainian...

We are not bad, we just tired...

Anyway, I will always love Ukraine!

Hey,hey

 What's up people?  It's been a long time... soo..
It's 3 Am here and i have school tomorrow..ahaha..But i've slept all day today so i don't wanna sleep.
!I was writing  speech for my lesson of history..the topic is Ukrainian-American affairs..That's right topic dude ! Special for me..So I've done some researches ..oh...we have a lot of affairs ..u know..
Okay, so i was sitting, writing as suddenly electricity switched off...RIGHT I'M THE LUCKY ONE ...my work was almost ready ...duude...Thanks to autosaver i found it yaaayy...

Guess what? I like WI ahaha...u know i've met here a volunteer from this state and aww..she's so cute Wisconsiner...That's what i like in Americans u can ...keep smiling :) She presented me a fridge magnet of WI state and brooch with Alaska... Perhaps for u it's simple deal..but i was so surprised..we haven't seen uhm for 2 weeks perhaps but ...dude i'm really really really happy :DDD Now i feel closer to Wisconsin..ahaha..

And more boring news firstly smth. has happened to world and people..cuz. i can't recognize my friend. She changed herself...she's more pessimistic now (okay i like these people and usually make them happy) but here it seems like i'm the worst enemy..u know when this type of people start argue and ughh...it's a long story U.u... But i do hope we'll be back and everything gonna be okay...

Secondly i even don't know...as usual there is mess in my head cuz. i have 2 weeks even less to do all the paper work for Uni i want to try to enter..it's uni where i was at camp..AUBG....right just for try..not bad :DD..anyway my general aim was Austria :) So, let's just try, okay? I do hope for financial aid-:3

And uhmm...I'm going to concert almost in the end of december..before Armageddon :)!!! Ahhaahah...but if I will say what kind of concert it's gonna be..hahaha...Let it be a small secret :D

And today I had such good dreams...one of them awwww....Dude...It was a super-funny dream :D We were in my school and ..yyaaayyy....YYYAAAAYYY...The most American person ..Katelyn  from camp  was dancing and.... was dancing ...And i was ...was dancing....everyone was dancing ...and it was....
funny.
And later in another dream...i found a huge spider in seeds xD
Ahhaa..now when i'll be in this part of school i will be thinking of this dream(about the first one of course)..and it was a super inspirited dream..

Hahah...and i found a real American typical pullover..which u have in colleges usually...And i wanted to put it on tomorrow..

Perhaps it was sign..
American spirit is coming

October

 Month has gone away, so what's going on?
     Actually there are some changes ..yeah,yeah again, and i don't think they are really good. Okay, let's start. I feel more depressed and it's impressed me a lot. I don't want to be without smile cuz. u know that it's me...but it's hard, It's hard to survive here. I don't wanna be like depression person but i can't be so crazy as i can be..perhaps the main reason is surround area. Where there are no people who can smile with u and u r the only one who try to keep smiling and help others ...sometimes it's hard cuz. u haven't anyone who will help u...but i wish to have this person. I'm happy but as Americans said we all have Brick faces, and if u live here for couple days u will be the same. I want to smile but gosh it's hard. Yup, there is nothing impossible but where is everything? I still love my country cuz. a lot people say i don't love, i'm patriotic!

But if you've seen the small world i had seen, you'll understand me. Because when you are with people with who you want to smile anyway you just feel yourself. School is going good but not perfectly...even my enthusiasm run away because if u are the only one with really crazy spirit, nope it's pointless.

I have American English that what my teachers said and uhm, okay...but i have to change it..mmm never ! I prefer American English and yup finally i see the deference in accent and so on...cuz. yeah there is a huge difference for me...now British is like another language for me and i should forget all my skills and start to learn British. No way...even if teachers say so...

But what is really hard, is when you had aims in your life which you wanted to achieve..and suddenly everything has fallen down(  Earlier I had some kind of falling but then i had a camp yyyaaayyy...but now..again i've lost my aims. And when i have no reason to work for i don't want to work. The same with English we'll have the week of English language and last year i've done a hard work making the video so this year again i have a LOT of ideas, but after some minutes...i don't want to realize them...because there is no sense...good mark? okay i'll have it and what's next....nothing. Nobody will appreciate it, so i won't waste my time.

Some changes...but they are necessary to survive here...cuz. you start to do everything as your surround. But when i talk to American...yayy no way ! Here yaaayyy...there are some, even a lot of Peace Corps and i'm Happy...truly happy..cuz. i understand them and i'm eager to communicate with them...Yaaayyyyyy! Cuz. I can smile, finally, to them...and i won't be "crazy". I'm happy, Americans are my world, i like to be free and smiley. don't care. guacamole hahaha...

Okay, this month we were in Kiev( capital of Ukraine) with my class , and visited some museums ...And it reminds me of Bulgaria when we got to Sofia with Bus ( with Bus with Americans haha) And i remembered this moment when i said to myself that i'm like in America, simple bus yeah, but instead of our teachers here i have Americans...and when i was sitting  in bus i've mentioned that...no Americans so saadd...
BUT this month we've met two Georgians yaayy...I dunno perhaps i attract foreigners but they were Georgians i just like foreigners and Georgians too, after camp a lot of countries started to be something more than just countries for me...I still remember some words in Georgian * We helped them to find the right way.

I have some work for school u know homework, presentations..And no understanding ...this is my last year...!
But tomorrow i want to go to school a little bit more that earlier cuz. finally i sit with my friend in class...u know we have double desks here aha... So, have to do 5 presentations but i almost ready with work.
We had Halloween uhm..but we didn't celebrate it...But I hope some day I will celebrate it! Some a lot of thoughts about changes, people and changes...because some people have changed and their personality too,,,
But keep smiling still yep try to do that, to forget something ... And it's such a pity to have people who you understand and they are like you, but  so far from you.

When you miss people not the place, when you miss the atmosphere, when you don't care about some problems because this feeling substituted another feeling.
By the way I've met Americans ...even from Wisconsin ...cuz. I love Wisconsin ...or it's better say she's from Alaska ...Anyway i do love these both states, And that what i can call ( what is good has happened with me this month).


Anyway it was october and next october i hope i'll be writing my blog in other place ;)
Peace.

What's going on?

 Yeah,yeah i've forgotten about blog, but i have the reason - school has just started :D
 As u know, it's my last year, so saaad :( We won't meet again ah.... There are some positive facts about my school leaving but i have so many thoughts inside my head, so i can't sleep well. What has changed after camp? I have changed, i've started to be more positive as i was in the camp, i like American culture and their mentality. But u know that :) I've became kinda crazy whatever i'm another, strange for school but although it's still me ..yyaayyy ..some positive and craziness BUT i study really better ... Hmm....
  I'm attending German courses Intermediate level  wooohhoooo...German cuz. I want to study in Wien University - faculty American and English studies btw. it will be in English but  I have to pass B2 exam in German . Okay. So, i'm kinda busy.
   Everyone say  I have a native American accent :D Thank u...I've noticed that actually too, it sounds another..aha..dude. :D The same time german teacher said that i have a good german accent i'm confused:D  School is funny and full of studying we're the smartest and oldest U_u :) I'm understanding History really, if i knew it before, i wouldn't believe. But right makes might i know it, not fluently but...much better.
   Today we even drank tea on lesson in school! My dream came true...BUT we still need these coffee machines in school...ahhh poor kids :D  And yeah, we started our school at 1st of September mmm... :D  We presented flowers to teachers and so on. I love Chemistry :D
 Ahh..school school ...Tomorrow we have an open lesson i dunno how to explain, actually all teachers and stuff can come and watch on us how we study, so it will be English language lesson..ahh no wayy...Sure, I have to prepare a loooottt :D Debates, dialogs, tips so on...btw. i should say smth. alltime if smth. goes wrong. Ah...okay..btw. i'm using my communication and journalistic skills and also writing during studying, writing essays and of course orators projects. And even drama skills cuz. we tell poems and i'm telling it with emotions so everyone are crying...Today on German lesson we had to describe picture on mine was some building and that's all...but i've written a roman looking on these building cuz. once girl has seen her guy with another girl. She understood everything and cried, then she came to building and this building means a lot cuz. there they have met first, than she wrote an sms and has gone away...but guy run to her and noticed these significant building thet explained it was her sister and then he asked her marry him... Ahhaaa romantic ;)
  Too many impressions now, but we'll see. I have made the video-presentation about Chinese and Japanese architectures, so now I've heard a lot of their songs :D But they are cool....  Okay, wish me lucky day tomorrow on English lesson...Just rock it Katelyn Junior ...I'll do it !

Queen in people's hearts

Today is 15 anniversary since Lady Diana's death.   You are! my inspiration and idol forever. I always will remember you. We love you!.  She has  made so a lot of things for charity. Diana was open and honest person.  I'm impressed she was a real angel who come back to sky so early. She always loved kids and people. She helped them, she wanted to do that.! I want to follow her steps by volunteering somewhere,  helping to other. She did it with open heart, she spoke with simple people, she helped them.  I don't want to speak about death because there will be mysteries forever. Nobody knows the truth. So, let's think and remember her.

 I can't describe that, but she is someone who really close for me. Probably because of my name i think so, but she is a real Queen. Her smile, her taste in fashion. I really love her. I'm admiring her actions. We can't say exactly what was the true, how was it. But we can say Diana helped people with open heart! Not for popularity no. She did it, she wanted to do that. She was one of the famous people who really wanted to save people.
 She cared about them, when most of people just forgot about many problems. I'm admiring this person. I think she's a beautiful example who we

need to be. How we need to act, think. She had a hard life, full of sad things.
But there was not only the world with press, popularity, there was another side, another world of opportunities to help other. The other side of people who truly admired her and loved.

Diana was an amazing person.  Everything what she had done was honestly. She was honest with people, she hadn't acted as a famous person. She could speak with simple people, touch them, take kids in her arms. Everything. Lady Diana was one of us, simple, honest people.

Now you belong to heaven
And the stars spell out your name...
..And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
     Elton John- Candle in the wind. 

Helping people in need is a good and essential 

part of my life, a kind of destiny.
HIV does not make people dangerous to know, so you can shake their hands and give them a hug: Heaven knows they need it.
Princess Diana 

Carry out a random act of kindness, with no expectation of reward, safe in the knowledge that one day someone might do the same for you.
Princess Diana

She was and I'm sure is a beautiful Mother!
Who truly loved and still loves  her sons.

She is a Queen in people's hearts! 

Good Bye England's rose. 

Rest in Peace <3 

Ukrainian Independence Day!

Happy Independence Day Ukraine!
( I was kinda lazy, so btw. Ind. Day was on 24th of August, just let you know)

However I loved America and England and wanted to live there, but my Motherland always will be Ukraine. I'm proud to be Ukrainian. I love my country and it doesn't matter where I will live, study etc. I'm Ukrainian! It's 21st b-day. It's an adult age. Happy B-day Ukraine!

So, time to celebrate our Independence Day after American. We haven't any BBQ on backyards, but yeah we have fireworks. We decided to go to the park with attractions. There I bought Hot-Dog ( but it was completely Ukrainian) and as normal people I said to my friend " Let's eat it while sitting on grass" It took me some time to explain everything, but i won. How do that? JUST SIT ON GRASS AND EAT UR HOT DOG. Yup, of course some people watched at us, huh as usual, whatever...we were relaxed. I was on slights, it had to be American but it's very simple... btw. I screamed just for fun :D Hmmm...I started to sing country music and shout WHAT"S UP DUDE....

In a way to shop two guys wanted trolled us or so...but i was the first...i just said "What's up, dude? "...They were confused, my friend were shocked that i did that... Welcome back Diana :D...And these guys are " We don't know" and run away from us... Everybody laughed of my actions. Then we met them again " Thank you for English" I was impressed and said " Dude". Guys " Dude". So, like that they know the new American word " DUDE"


That's not all. U know what is ridiculous? I bought coca-cola to remember America while celebrating Indep. Day and then I've noticed the date of manufacture it was the 4TH OF JULY!!! Dude, i'm celebrating Ukrainian Ind. Day now, but my coca-cola was created in American Ind. Day... mysteries are continuing :D Isn't it awesome? 4th of July! Awww....


Good Day Happy B-Day to Ukraine!

1 Month !

Still, still...everything, everyone are in my heart in my head, memory. Probably my poem will tell more than me..i'm kinda sleepy... Sounds poem! :D

Dedicated to AUBG Americans teachers and AUBG campers 2012 

This feeling when you can't stop thinking 

About people who you love

This feeling when you miss people

This feeling when you miss emotions

This feeling when you need some dreamer

Who will say who you are

This feeling when you want to come back

This feeling when you just can’t forget

This feeling when you are looking at photos and smile

Because you can’t cry

This feeling when everything has changed

When you understood how do not be sad

This feeling when you want to return this time

But you can’t do it now

This feeling when you go to sleep remembering them

This feeling when you want again to speak with them

This feeling when they first paid attention on you

This feeling when you thought shame on you

This feeling when it wasn’t a fault

It was only begin of new world

This feeling when you want to continue

You just don’t want to say, it was the end

You want to remember it all time

You are thankful for that, you were smiled

You were yourself , you were happy

Why do we need that …to be apart

This feeling when you miss people

This feeling when you probably won’t meet again

This feeling when you can’t stop thinking

You remember them all, all time

This feeling when you try to continue

This feeling when you smiled every time

This feeling when it was unforgettable minutes

Every time, every smile, every look, every word

This feeling when it was crazy for you

This feeling when you suddenly started to do

This feeling which you’ll never forget

I want to say thank you for all of that

You will remember this time

You will remember them

People who changed that

People who you like, who you can’t forget

People who you are missing

People who you remember in a bad minutes

People whose smiles are in your heart

People whose words are in your brain

People who you don’t wanna forget

People who you will remember and being like them

You won’t be sad no, they won’t like it

Be yourself, changes it’s not bad

You dream about meeting again

You hope it will be, just don’t forget them

People who you will remember in your heart

People who you will share about

This feeling when it stopped

But you thought it will continue forever

We have to move , we have to go

This feeling when remained only one minute

You say goodbye you try don’t cry

You hided your tears but heart cried

You are remembering them still and will

This feeling when every minute

This feeling when every person

This feeling when every place

This feeling when every song

Make you remember them all

This feeling when after these minutes

There remained only photos with your emotions

This feeling when memories make you happy

This feeling when it was unforgettable minutes

This feeling when you want to come back

This feeling which you will remember forever in your head

Just thank you for that

However if you read it, i'm glad to know that. 

Btw. what ridiculous i've understood today is that ...there is some spy...you know i've just told a huge secret about my twin who acting now in Broadway and makes my dream come true...how suddenly i found a theatre! dude THEATRE who invited to play there.... i've just started to think seriously about it after a GREAT INSPIRATION in a camp, so here is that..i'll show them what the drama is :DDD But I have to call them and say that HEEY I"M OVER HERE take me to the THEATRE. 

Kinda figure out with my future like Uni and so on...it's too complicated to study abroad..but who said that i'm searching for easy ways? 

And just let you now...I really feel like the only one originally Ukrainian who acts like American...huh..

And some days ago I passed a test simple test..and it said that my way of communicating is kinda American..probably there was some influence on it..Hah..I  have no idea WHICH influence. 

Seems like conclusion of everything what happened and what made me happy and still making by remembering all these stuff in my head ...And just let u know...i'm gonna put it on my diary so i'll watch at it every day during my last year of school..huh...i'm gonna be still ME in school ...:D
And yeah it took me years to make that... 

Surprise or what to do in the middle of August

You know, it's freaking cold here. It's like 14*C.  Do you think it's quite normal temperature in August, definitely not.  Everyone are wearing warm clothes, jackets which we usually put on in the late autumn but not in August, guys what's happened to world? All right saying bye bye summer, and bye bye all my new clothes from Bulgaria cuz. there is many of them for summer weather, like t-shirts and dress... ah..dress i have put on it only once, being in camp, when we gave a presentation of our classes, it was almost the last day :-\ , Yup, I wanted to be now somewhere like CA or so, wearing flip-flops and sunglasses, buy a cup of coffee in Starbucks and walk around the streets. Yeah, even if it's VERY hot, ugh...i need summer and sun, so i'm gonna taking sunbathes in my dreams :D Okay, as usual on holidays i'm gonna to bed in the morning then wake up after lunch or so, it's summer! Btw. i'm living like in American time cuz. when it's night here there is day, I even can easily count what time is in a state right now.

 All right I was sleeping as usual it was smth. like 2pm aaaaaaaaaannnnnnndddd, phone ringing wake me up...Who was that? -Teacher :) Yup, 'glad' to hear that, aannnd guess what, which one haha..english teacher oh yeaahhhh.... :D I'm kinda confused btw. i was sleepy, and she asked haven't I forgotten school and english? I have dreams about school almost every night, ugh " awesome". And i have practiced language for a month ( in a camp...awww camp ^.^...and at home with others Americans) so it's kinda impossible in my case. Okay, she wanted that I have gone to school the next day...in the morning!!! For what? You will know later. Awesome, really :D  I've thought, actually I hoped, she asked smn. also to come to her, I couldn't be the only one haha I can. I was the only only, I really like how I began my adaptation to school "almost". I put on my favorite American scarf, actually it was the right decision cuz. It was windy outside sooo...why not? And ugh...i had to tell her EVERYTHING we started with how i found this camp, like how i've sent e-mails to camp director,how i found another group in my country to travel with, how I alone opened visa and so onnnnnnn....

We talked, talked, talked, talked....actually she said that my character is shy and close and that evreyone are thinking that i'm pessimistic closely person ( it was seriously, not like you Americans like to say everything in a contrary :D) Ahhhhaaa...i'm pessimistic when i'm screaming, telling and smiling, LAUGHING like a psycho when i told about camp, cuz. i've received SO many emotions and memories that i'm gonna keep them by heart forever!!! Really, i was laughing, yup,  when i was younger..oh ..time time we gotta old so fast :D i was kinda shy, but who wasn't, the main idea who am i now! All right forget about it...i was so open and strange but ugh...why am i strange i only packed a unicorn to my luggage before going to US?, that she asked do  I in some sect, cuz. people usually have behavior like mine. Of course, I am...I'm in a sect with my unicorn and husband Ernest Hemingway...what did you thought about...butt tss.. do not tell smb. Q.q  So we talked and talked, talked and talked....in conclusion, guess what, the main reason was to help her to print some papers for school. No, it's not bad, but ugh..it's like volunteering for me, for her i dunno xDDDD

According to expectation I have to:
1. print some documents at first type them and then print 8 papers.
2. write a report about camp ( as a creative " closely pessimistic" person i'm trying to write it in a poem form
3. make a video, presentation about camp, that later future students could see who was I  :3
4.  find some new tasks for city competition of english language
5. take to her my diploma just she could see it ( there are American signatures and their names awww..^.^... :D)
6. take my works from creative writing that she could check it, and see my level...so serious ...level :D
and sooo oonnn.. with what i've already figured out.

Then I was full of emotions, haha ...i've called my friends and told them some news...i was screaming for all bus, no i'm just started to speak SO loudly  :3 haha..smn. turned around on me and  with pessimistic face said to "friend" how am yelling bla bla...sorry i forgot now i have to try say to myself slower, stop....i'm like a robot speak loudly...sorry :\ whatever i like it, btw. i was with American scarf haha...sooo...they understood ...me

In evening I've talked to my friend from a camp in skype awwww....I miss them , I MISS! And ugh...i still remembering every thing, and ridiculous situation which happened to us.... Then I called again to my teacher cuz. I promised to , and said, "I'm like  a communicative person found to you more volunteers to help, and i've figured out with time and so"..." Oh, now I see some changes in you" ...ugh...dtw. I LOVE my school and will miss it...but gonna talk about it later, now holidays, enjoy...cuz. i know i will be a real ZOMBIE during studying U.u

U know after talking for 2 hours in english with my friends, uhm...i was sitting in a room where were my parents, i was searching for smth. in laptop thinking about my stuff...how suddenly on TV started some music video. i dunno which one but it sang like jigalo and hahaha....gosh...i started to speak in English " Oh, we played it in a camp" .....STOP russian... God I started to speak english just like that, i've told my thoughts in english that i understood i need to speak another one that nobody here speak English... It's "normal" yeah...

 After-American-camp adaptation, situation №4578359745 ....

P.S finally gonna cook tomorrow guacamole ...small portion at first.
I'm feeling that someday i'll write a book about my life, nothing special has happened but i will tell it so long with details...haha..a real journalist :D
 See ya...

Day 6 (Last),dude

 You know I like my chicken fried
Cold beer on a Friday night
A pair of jeans that fit just right
And the radio up...
     Yup, it's country dude, as  I mentioned I like this music, we sang it with others dudes..awww..it was so American, I found more lovers of this music..yyyaaayyy.

       Okay, I'll do it dude. I'm kinda lazy to write, cuz. I've got  tired, but I have to write about these American dudes. Huh, as usual I came too early, and had to wait for others.Then Americans came yaaayy...one American started to fry sausages on grill ...aaaaaa sausages made by American. oh WOW,, hahha,, i'm kidding. And we decided to play volleyball U.u ... I'm not really good at it but I hit ball not bad I did it!!! hehe...I just needed practice so we played it...I was feeling like I've returned to camp, we've played it on sand without shoes, with Americans awww,,:D  Now. i'm feeling more sure about volleyball. I'll hit it dude. At first we've played simple volleyball  and we've seen that it wasn't really good idea, cuz. we're not perfect players. So, we changed the rules, actually it was our game, but we had to explain it to American part. The idea is that you have to hit the ball and if you haven't catched it you sit into the circle.. actually even Americans know that , cuz. we've played it in a camp. Whatever I liked it, I didn't want to play volleyball cuz. I don't really like it, but later I started to love it.. haha..now I love volleyball ... how fast things changed,huh :D But i'm still baseball lover sooo...

    Then, ohhhhhhhh...you know what....i've tried, i've seen this American ball for football, not soccer, football ^.^... my dream came true, yyyaaayy... i've not  just seen that i even tried to catch and throw, ohh Ameriiicaaa.... I'm happy. Then we had smth, like supper with junk food., we've eaten chips, fried sausages, bread, mayo ( oh, i'm lover of mayo and ketchup, haha.. don't hit me... being in a camp we hadn't really good food , so i always put there some mayo and ketchup just to make it better, but after camp these stuff are reminding me about these moments  in a camp , so why not? ) and some others.

  We've talked with Americans dudes ( oh, yeah you've noticed i always use this word) made photos, and were happy. I was as usual shy...aha..as American said..that Americans always say opposite meaning.. soo yeah i'm a shy person. Didn't you know that, huh?  Why do not be happy as for me? I have no siblings, no pets, no crying babies even no trash...i'm happy and enjoy my life.

   Then we were sitting like Americans oh gosh, everything like American haha..whatever ...Oh, yeah I've learned new word... you gotcha ... gotcha dude, i've played football duuuudee... Oh my gosh xD
I enjoyed communicating with Americans so sooo much dudes.  I will miss them aww...:\ EVERYONE!With who I will be crazy? I need Americans to be crazy hehe.. i forgot i'm shy.

 And aaaaaaaaaaaaa...i've tried marshmallows aaaaa...we made it like American of course it wasn't like American,  cuz. ours are smaller and just another, btw. at least i've tried it!!!  I've fried marshmallow and then put it on cookie on which was a piece of chocolate then marshmallow and then another cookie Aaaaaaa...It's really AWESOME and so tasty, i haven't expected that, it's like not really sweety but tasty. Aww..amazing!
Why am I not American? I even can't do it like Russian speaker can, like this letter R but russian R and you have to say it long like rrrr... not like  uhr American nope like spanish some times rrrr soo..most of Americans can't do that but we can, hahaha..but I from my childhood couldn't do that never :DDD No, i was born in wrong place...hehe As Erica said I was born in Indiana and I'm her neighbour. Oh, what i wanted to say, yup. This week 2 American dreams came true yyaaayy...
I've added new dreams to my list. I've tried marshmallows like American, and i've tried REAL American football, not bad, huh?

1 week not a lot , but it was unforgettable, thank to ALL  dudes for this week... it was such a pleasure to speak to ALL of Americans, and staying myself, communicating in English, understanding them, singing, playing, everything, It was really cool..and I will repeat again I really love American mentality for their warm character, friendly and positive soul, with who you can speak and smile everytime. Just meet and hug to this person, smile and have a nice day and nice mood after that. I love it. Will meet again when I will a volunteer, sometimes I will happen...aaaannndd I'll make a BIG tour of US ... I'll begin with Indiana, then Michigan, my favorite Wisconsin, Alaska cuz. I was interested in this state long  before the camp, then California woohhooo CA... and I'm sure this tour will increase...
As I promised photos...

 Most of us, not all...

 This marshmallow thing with cookies n  chocolate ... first try!

(With Dale, krutoy  chuvak (cool dude) 

 Marshmallows ... no comments about marshmallows

AWESOME week!

Day 5 ( pre-last)

Today, we last met in our building, but tomorrow we should meet on a beach. Where we will play volleyball( ahhh...I'm not good at it :\ I just need some practice to be better but whatever, it has to be fun), and probably, i'm not sure exactly we'll try to make marshmallows ( if we will, my dream ( small) will come true again) but i dunno about it nothing, we'll we do that or not, but i wish we will :D We'll make a camp fire and we'll see, cuz. i dunno even where it will be, actually i know but last time i was there i was smth. like 6 haha... so we'll see, i'll try to find the right way, in whole i understood where is that, but exactly, we'll see...

  We had a lot of fun today, we played some games.. oh yeah I forgot yesterday we've played a game which called Telephone i think you know what is that, you just to each other some sentence and in the end we'll see how it sounds :D It was funny yesterday the sentence was Cat likes to sit on a head ( I don't remember) and in the end we had smth. like what is plant or  no i don't remember cuz. we played it twice sooo.. :\

Btw.  today we played ahh..i dunno how it called but we've made some word and need to say to one person from opposite team and this player had to show that to his team, and they guessed.. It was sooooo funny, cuz. we had to show, zombie who played soccer,  wizard cooked pancake, cow rolled in dust, cowboy danced ballet and more more... I showed squirrel who drove the car :D

Before that we sat in the circle and then first person say I'm going to America. And i'm gonna pack that the next person repat all this and add her own word and so on. We have packed alligator,tooth brush n paste, mother-in-law :DD, money, camera, microphones, perfume, bear spray :D , i've packed Unicorn :DDDD

Excited about tomorrow, also we made some photos today, but tomorrow we'll make more, cuz. it will our last meeting :( So fast, why so fast ?  I will miss everyone, they are so funny crazy Americans :DD
 ( Americans are not crazy, but they also say it..soo..i have to say that i'm crazy too but i don't say that but i'm crazy :DD) I will miss greeting with Steve like Hey dude, what's up ? :D I will miss this dude. And others too of course, many of them I like, I like these Americans, they are really nice people.

And we also teached one American our words, he's awesome... he say kruto ( cool) :DD And uhm.. today he greeted like Hey chuvak, ty krutoy ( Hey dude, you're cool) :DD Like me always greeted hey dude :D
Uhh...wait for tomorrow..

Day 4 ( New song)

 Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayy, it happened!!! But we'll talk about it later ;)
 I had to go out from internet, so i had some time to prepare myself.. and in internet suddenly appeared new song, new Hurts song, which  I waited so loooong sooo loooong. AAaannnd my internet stopped work. Yeah, as usual :\

  Okay, today before everything started Americans, we were sitting on stairs. Aww..stairs, America :DDD I've greeted with everyone, hehe..today I've decided to wear American flag-scarf and American flag- t-shirt :D

Today, we taught Americans how to say some words in Russian xDD No, that was fine, they are Americans but said it really cool, Kruto ( cool) :D Then we talked with Americans, ahhh...I've seen some photos from vacation, then talked to other Americans.  So, tomorrow will be the last day but on the saturday we should go on the beach..hehe..but with Americans. I really like to talk to them..aww...

 Okay.......ta-daaamm.. NEW SONG  which makes me cry all the time... these words make you feel the song, you understand listening to it. Marvellous!!!
 The song name is Under the bridge, just try to listen to THESE words to feel them and to understand!! And smth. previous When I was in a camp, I've attended creative writing lessons, cuz. I love writing, and we usually listen to some calm music and write ...and once it was HURTS! It shocked me, cuz. I so missed them and love them. And their songs are really calm with sense, touchable, so..I felt it and started to write a poem.. and it was about girl who was stood on the bridge, she was alone, she was disappointed I've described every touch, feeling, that everyone could feel that and then she jumped from this bridge into the river, it was so cold like her heart, everywhere was silence, and river was lively, it worried like her heart, so after that she's part of another world not this one full of undevoted air. And NOW we can hear NEW song HURTS song, under the bridge of course it's completely another story but, it reminded me of my poem , and just camp, a coincidence again?

Day 3

 Why am I not American? My first question, WHY? More and more people agree that I'm kinda look like American girl ( not a lot of course) but I'm not typical.

  Okay, I decided to come to Americans than stayed at home for concert. I greeted with my new American-Korean friend. We talked a little bit. And today  we  discussed some extreme sports. Americans are crazy, they do all these thing, like climbing, skydiving, snowboarding, surfing and more, more dangerous stuff. After that we played a game, I have no idea how it called, but we have to write our names on paper then we picked the name of other people, then we had to say the name of some person, and if you guessed this person go to your place, actually, uhm, okay the main idea that we need ( 4 people, 2 female and 2 male sat) an we had to gather 4 people  ( and if it 4 girls or 4 boys then this gender will win). Ahhh..and girls WON! Yeah, dude we WON :)

 Then we discussed a lot of interesting stuff about sports and so on.  I just love listen to Americans as  I mentioned :D , I haven't any uncomfortable feeling, I just understand, it's hard to explain. I'm American :D And probably, awww, I have to tell about my vacations, you know what it will be? ..haha.. yaay..American camp in Bulgaria..I think Americans will like it, and it will interesting for others to listen my vision and all this stuff about camp :D No, i'm gonna tell probably a little bit, cuz. if  I will start my report, it's  gonna be for hours hours :D I need to think what to tell, and what to show :\  At the end I've talked to a lot Americans :DD As I said before I like their open mentality, even today it always will impress me in a good sense, cuz. when you are coming somewhere Americans will greet with you, with smile ah..that's what I really love !And you know, to Americans you just want to speak with, you want to know them, you want to smile to them and be open like them and positive. Why am I not American?

Okay, and yaaay..I haven't skipped perform of my favorite band, because fortunately or unfortunately suddenly, it stopped, so nobody have seen new song and just perform..ahh..what a pity, but i hope soon it will be on youtube and i'll see it. I dunno what to prepare for tomorrow's report :\

And I really want one day to prepare guacamole :D I need to go and buy some avocado :\

See ya tomorrow, Americans.

Day 2

  We  sat at first in main auditorium, waited for others Americans. They came and goosh, they soo Americans..uhm their style, clothes. It's a big contrast. You just can say exactly from a crowd, who is American. And when they came, atmosphere had changed, I started to smile, breath haha.. :) It's another feeling, another. This time we were sitting in a circle. I met Kelly and we talked some minutes before it began. I told, how all Americans like sit on floor or on grass ( I love it!) and told this story about man who made picture while me and my friend were sitting on  grass with country music. Haha...probably he thought that we're Americans :DDD

We told about our days, how we were doing, what did we do. I told that all day I was sleeping,yeah, than I watched American TV show on computer, and then came there. This guy asked me what's the name of TV show. - Kendra on top. And, yup, one man knew who is that, he explained she's playboy bunny and he said some facts about her or sooo, I was completely impressed.  I said that she also got married with Hank Baskett who was football player. And they even knew him, and in which team he played and so on.  Everyone remembered, I haven't expected that or no I'm just impress that people from America where Kendra lives and this show is. They are living there probably, this one impressed me,cuz. i'm watching it in internet, they on TV, and they know that.

 
Then we discussed what camping is. How Americans do that, and how we do. What's the difference and so on. A lot of information, you know, about everything, like tents, camping, camp fire, food, rent, bathrooms in forest! :DD  Then we sang American song, camp song. Haha..I'm not good in singing and yup, again different we Ukrainian were little shy, confused to sing, so we more murmured, but Americans they sang it loudly, They weren't shy like we. They always open.  How sang it,
the ants go marching one by one, hurrah,hurrah,
 the ants go marching one by one, hurrah,hurrah, 
the ants go marching one by one. 
the little one stops to suck his thumb,
 and they all go marching down around the town. 
BOOM BOOM BOOM
 I liked it, American song, I wanted to be American haha so here it is  :D  And  I wanna try Marshmallows, it has to be really tasty, Aww :(
I found it so you can listen

Then we discussed, listened, and new task. Guess what, which one? SKIT! Haha..,we had 4 people, 5 minutes to figure what to do, the topic was camping. :DD but it's SKIT!!! SKIT!! Aaaawwwww...again.. yaaayy. Aaandd ..haha..yup , I was in my atmosphere..ahhh.. I miss it. So, we discussed and somehow without training cuz. not much time, went on stage. I was a crying baby :DD  The main idea was 3 people family, mama, baby, and our cousin. I'm crying, touching everything, make trash :D Then we sat near the fire, yyaay i'm a baby I will eat :D Then bear appeared and our cousin fighted with him and he run away. Baby survived yayy.. :D We had only 5 minutes to make a skit :D

Okay. in the end we had some minutes to chat with Americans closely, huh, probably my favorite part of meeting :D This time after chatting with Kelly, I've got acquainted with another American, actually originally she's from Korea, WOW :D, but lives in US for 26 ? years. She has a family in US. And we were talking for a long time. Aww...she's very good. We discussed a lot of stuff, like education, America, and how i want to  live in WI, about future plans. I've told that I'm interesting in Asian culture cuz. it's completely another. And more more I just can say I like her, she is very interesting and smiley.So... excited to meet her again and continue to talk :)

 And tomorrow will be a musical festival in Hungary, where will perform my favorite band. But, this time I had to be with Americans. So hard to choose I wanna to see their perform, I haven't seen them for 6 month at all..but i want to Americans :\ But yup, these emotions I won't feel when I'll see their perform in internet not live, but i will chat with Americans. Ahh..not everyday they are coming here. So.. i'll go to Americans. These emotions won't replace any others.

I'm excciiiteeed America :D
Some new for me typical American songs which I liked.

Day 1

  As I said from 6-10 August will be an English speaking club, or so btw. there will be American volunteers.
Ah..new week, new Americans, new volunteers, new people. I'll spend with them almost 1 week, communicating with them and so on, actually I just  enjoy this absolutely another atmosphere that we have outside, it's completely different, it's positive i wanna say it again and really relaxing and of course American. Here we go :D

 This building is pretty far from my house, so I  had to go there with a public transport...goosh..I soo wean from our cars, transport, roads, people :\ As I passed road It was another, in Bulgaria I was like "oh, my gosh crazy drivers, they didn't stop, they just made their cars slower but as  you go away they just flew from your back". And I thought, and missed our roads but hmm..noo. I had to wait while car will go away they hadn't stop to let you pass, they just or whatever i'll go. Is that normal? I've just got used to Bulgarian crazy drivers, and that they go really fast but they stop, here nope it doesn't work :\ So, again it shows how people care about others, whatever.  I sat in bus, i thought i will die, it was sooo old, it hasn't repaired for a long time or just never ( i so wean from it tooo, so I just started see all this things around me and noticed that, what i haven't got used to do before) ,  driver was driving  soooooooooo fast, it's like an attraction American slides, bus jumped, stopped, it was so loud, you just can feel how it's shaking under your hands.

Somehow I got to this building. I came a little bit early ( again my habit) and waited for others. Yyyaaayy.. Americans came. There weren't so many people, but Americans came and came. I seemed like there will be more Americans than us xDD Btw. when I came into this auditorium, woman who gave me the advertisement ( remember?) yeah, and she asked Was I this girl who started speak to her in English ? Hahahah.. :DD I didn't expect  that it was smth. like WOW, but people remembered that . :D

I sat, waited and American sit near me. At first I asked her, Was she American. And yes she's American. Really, from first side you can say this is American. They always laughing, as i said positive, and joking. She sat near me, and we started  to talk( yeah, just right there, cuz. I a little bit know who Americans are, that you don't have to be scary to talk with them, be yourself, relax, smile and talk :)) Her name is Kelly ( if I wrote it right sorry i dunno)  I've asked about state and that all Americans here are from Indiana. I really like her, she is very good, smile and laughing, I love this kind of people, actually I love Americans, cuz. of their easy-going character. I'm gonna repeat it all time ! :D She asked how long had I learned English. I told her that I was in a camp where were Peace Corps volunteers and just had some practice with them and so. I started learn it at school. And suddenly she said that I speak English better than she speaks. Haha..I love Americans, i was pleasant to hear that but of course I'm not perfect hehe...:D   No really, it's strange just sit and smile to person and then talk with but feeling comfortable I like this feeling and way of communicating!

Allright then we've separated on two groups like Beginners and Advanced( I was here yaayy). There Americans introduced themselves and so on. They told us where they were. We've listened about Florida, California beaches, reaally a lot of interesting places that we need to visit. These seasides and the most popular places in these states. Then for 5 sec. we needed to tear off as many pieces of paper as we can. Americans are like 5 4 3 2 1 baaarrrrmmm I can't write it :D Then we had to introduce ourselves .
As usual I was honest to everyone ! My name is Diana, I'm 16 ( I even said my age!), I have no siblings, no pets, no crying babes yaay. I want to become a journalist. I like writing and cooking. In future want to become a volunteer. I have a husband his name is Ernest Hemingway, because yesterday I did a lot of work to write about him, so he must marry me. That me..I had to introduce myself, I had.

Okay, then Americans continued tell us about their adventures and vacations. And then Kelly said that originally she's from Michigan. GOD I KNEW it! Cuz. it's nearby WI  and kinda she looks like from WI not a lot but for sample guys from Indiana are another than she hehe i guessed it :DBecause people from WI are veeeeeeeeeeeeeeeery positive all time and sweet. ( I say it because i've got acquainted with girl from WI and she reminds me Nichole from a camp. they both are so cute and so typical WI  you betcha it's WI dude :DDD) ( I haven't said it but I really want to visit this state really a lot, cuz. of gorgeous places, lakes, cheese :D and people) Okay, we listened, listened, talked..than break and we had a chance to speak closer with Americans :D.. I love them, easy-going, positive what else do we need?

When I was in a way to my home. I've thought that everyone are speaking English and I couldn't understand them or so..haha..it was strange feeling to come back to the reality. In bus again I've felt like a sardine in tin. And yes I'm at home I'm not in US, everyone were pessimistic, yelling if smn. suddenly pushed smn. ahh...This kind of atmosphere  when you are living here will be all time. Because of that I like Americans, they are another, and that what i need to exist, just smile is that so hard? I was so pleasant and happy when we went out and Americans ( I haven't spoken to them reaallly closely, actually they even probably haven't seen me, BUT they said Bye bye, We will wait for  you tomorrow. See you. Everyone just smiled and said it. Yup, it's simple stuff but for us, for me it makes me happy a LOT!)

Tomorrow I'll go again there and I think there will be other stuff, topics and so on. Excited! :D
I should come to WI one time :3

Hope to see it sometime on my own eyes!

2 weeks!

 Only imagine 2 weeks...2 weeks have flew away. I can't believe in that really. The reason I want to write this post is that 2 weeks AUBG camp has ended, but I, I'm at home for 2 weeks. For 2 weeks I haven't felt this atmosphere, for 2 weeks I haven't spoken with an awesome campers. For 2 weeks I'm like into after-camp depression...I still can't believe that only 2 weeks I haven't seen all. And now for 2 weeks campers this beautiful place also has ended... How strange is that? I, We still missing everyone still remembering all, but after-camp also ended, like our. I can't believe. For me  it's like 2-3 days. I don't want to write here how I want to come back just believe me I WANT!

For this date I want to write which motivations, dreams, thoughts, goals gave me this camp, what i've learned, and what i want to do, and for what i'm thankful to everyone and hap that i was here. Of course smth. of this list isn't such a big dream but it made me happy, I've tried it first time and this is only for 3 weeks, I haven't thought that i'll try it next 10 years but I had it only for 3 weeks. I wanted that to try cuz. here I couldn't try it never.

Okay, let's start  :
1. I was happy, I was myself! 
2. I've tried Mexican and American cuisine ( guacamole with corn chips, pancakes(with apples, banana and chocolate), brownies, banana bread, burrito and more...)  I haven't skipped any cooking in a camp haha...
3. I was in Starbucks! ( Yeah, we haven't anything like that in Ukraine, I wanted to visit  that really a lot cuz. I know that in US you can see Starbucks everywhere :D) 
4. I was climbing on mountain ( for 30-45 minutes under the sun ahh...but it was unforgettably)
5. I was in  Mall ( Yeah again America not like in US but still American :D) It was so big  that 2 hours weren't enough to me  I was only on the 1 floor and not in every shop! But there are 4 or more floors..huh ?
6.  I bought scarf, designed like American flag  I wanted that VERY much, and I bought it here! 
7. I bought a dress from H&M  very cheap but it's a brand but i bought it for cheap price.
8. I've celebrated Independence Day with Americans Like in America! ( I used to do it on my own, dreaming to celebrate like real American soo..) It was American! We ate BBQ, played American games  
( eating contests ( ahh..this watermelon is still in my stomach. :D) water balloons fighting, spiting  contest and so on) So, American with Americans drinking to cola and eating hot-dogs sitting on Grass!!! Isn't it a dream?
9. I was sitting on floor with Americans like American, slept on stairs and feeling normal.. haha..yeah i like sit on floor :D
10. I've tried baseball, not big, but at least i've first seen, tried this glove :D
11. I was in cinema where i've seen 3D movie ( Yup, probably it will sound strange but yes I haven't seen 3D movie with  glasses in cinema, here we  go to cinema rarely) 
12. I've tried nuts with Wasabi hmmm... :D
13. I've tried peanut butter ( Americaaa) I always saw that in Am. movies, and i've tried it! ( but sorry i didn't like that really a lot but i've tried and know what is that :D) 
14.  I was drinking  coffee in class, on lesson  ( If I did it here, teacher gonna yell at me :D) I was feeling free! We listened to music during work...it's much better than serious and scary atmosphere like on exam .
15.I've written my first article, finally i've tried myself like a journalist making interviews, writing an article.
16. I've written my own skit. I've tried myself in writing some skit and playing that ( not attending  drama classes  =\  ). I've felt how it's like, playing, writing, searching for actors, and just organize all THAT!  
 But it was amazing I love my actors they did it really,really good.
17. We've played American games, AMERICAN!Such as jigalo, ( or how is  it called?), twister, Frisbee and some others i dunno how they called :)
18. And Ice-cream with nuts ( with salt nuts) haha.. at first i thought that i made mistake that i've taken nuts into my ice-cream with doping btw. I was right :D It was strange but Awesome!
19. I've chatted with real Americans :D
20. I have friends from whole world 
Isn't so bad, huh?
And more more simple stuff made me happy even for that we need to live ! ;)
Believe dreams come true and enjoy your life :D 

 

 Independence Day
Happy B-Day America :D

 Starbucks haha.. I've bought Frappucino with caramel ...ah it was tasty :D

 Sitting on grass, eating  American dishes and drinking cola :D
(On this photo from left to right 
Jose ( American, Legendary Man), Me, Katia 
(Ukraine), Vika ( Russia), Pavlena( Bulgaria))

 Spitting contest 

Skit :D

 Burrito :D

Teamwork and presentation

International night opportunity to show your country

Our big Family that I'll never forget!

3 weeks not too much? It's enough to make your dreams come true, to have beautiful and happy life, and so many memories for all your life!