Baseball

How I've spent these 2 days at home :)

 After camp, I couldn't find any place here. I wanted back. I missed Americans, I just need their communication. I love listen to  them, cuz. it's like paradise for my ears. So, when I came back I didn't know what to do, I was sitting at home all time, and it made me crazy. I need communication, I need people, I need emotions cuz. I'm very emotional and positive but if i haven't anybody to share my happiness with I become upset. For 4 days I didn't know what to do, I wanted to speak in English!!! And after some research  I did it!

 I found some information, that here in my town there are some volunteers from America. I haven't thought about anything, I've just said to myself GO! They made some lessons here to improve language skills, but unfortunately ( or fortunately cuz. nothing happened just like that) I haven't any time to check in these courses. All right next day I decided to call my friend cuz. she also likes Americans ( and she speaks English, and we haven't seen for a long time) and we went there together.

 We met on the field it was nearby school, and we waited for others. ( And again this Am. habit I've sat on the grass, with sunglasses on my eyes and waited for others mmm...grass). Even American asked us is it really strange if smn. sit on grass here in Ukraine, of course! But I do it, whatever I like it :) We've talked a little bit and then the rest of Americans came.

  " Who is from America" - yeaah my first question. Aaaaaaand then I so needed it. I was so happy. I talked to them FINALLY!!! And you know what, all of them are  from California!!!  I've asked from wich part of CA they are and some of them are from center and some are  from south ( if i remember rightly).

 Okay, we talked for a long time. I've got acquainted with them ( I'm not really shy anymore. If I see American I go to him/her and greeted. It's not bad, it's good!) . So, we shared some ideas about volunteering because, I'm more and more interested in this kind of living.

  Then we started to play baseball!!! REAL baseball they made a field for baseball with bases and everything, oh God.  Thanks to Nichole ( from AUBG) I tried to play baseball and I know ( a liiiittttttllle bit) about it. Because in AUBG I tried to catch the ball with this glove. ( I was impressed of this glove It was smth. strange for me but whatever I liked it). So, this time gloves and balls weren't smth. under my imagination. We made teams and started to play, actually it was a training because most of us, haven't played it. Even Americans they played it only, when they were children. But I think it's in their blood to play baseball!

I tried ( first time ) to hit the ball with baseball-bat. Of course these tries weren't really good. I've skipped all balls. Then I was stood in some part of field and if I needed to I cathed balls. I almost understood rules and idea of this game. Then I again hit the ball aaaannnd I DID i. I threw baseball-bat and run to the 1 base.
 " Good job" . I love it :D  Unfortunately my team lost, but we had really good players.

 Next day. At the same time we met at the same place.  This time I knew all Americans and their names, so it was even easier to speak with them. ALL Americans ALL time are Happy and Positive. Isn't it cool? It makes them warmer and more open for others, I dunno I love this mentality. You just go and greet and they started to smile to you,they asked how are you today..awwwwww

Okay, so in the begin we trained  with each others how to catch the ball and so on. And I recognised, I'm left-handed so I tried to put on special glove on right hand. I tried and YES! That mine. I catched every ball, which my friend threw to me, unbelievable and then I threw ball with left hand to her and mine throws were better than previous day. AWESOME! Here is the main idea, I just needed another glove :)

So, we separated on teams and started to play. I hit balls!!! With a strong power. I haven't skipped it, I hit them. O.o I hit the ball, threw away baseball-bat  and run to the 1 base, then to the 2, to 3 rd and out not mine smns. but everytime when I was on the 3rd base, It was our 3rd out. Okay. What the most interesting is that we were playing and suddenly it started to rain. It was a heavy  rain. Whatever some of us ( including me) continued to play baseball. You know it reminds me, moment from Twilight  when they played baseball under the rain. So, we had the same it was really heavy rain we got wet, cold, dirty. But it's like an extreme you run you can fall down, you gonna be dirty hmmmm....

But in conclusion I really liked it. It was Baseball! REAL baseball!! I love it. I 'm feeling very strange when I stood on base and have baseball-bat in my hands, then I hit it and I run . It's like in a movie but It's reality. I'm so happy that I've spent 2 days with Americans playing baseball, I've continued my feelings, and I spoke English. I'm happy. And I love baseball!!!!!! I miss AUBG Americans....

I really feel like I'm an American :D

"Good" night :D

Oh, really? I had an 'amazing'  good night now.  I was searching in internet ( oh, yeah as usual bla bla bla). Suddenly I've heard how smth. heavy falled down in my room ( it was closed). Uhm, all right . I've heard again some sounds like smb. was in my room ( but i'm living on the 3rd floor!!) hmm... ( actually sometimes i'm thinking about weird thing..i could think that it was my imagination etc.) but I've really heard smth. What to do? 2.30 AM Night.Okay, I will sleep there so , at least I have to check my room even if i'm crazy. Imagination started to work ( I switched on the light ( I was too scary)) okay, I'm here. I opened the door and I've felt how smth. heavy hit on my door behind O.o ....

I was scared. What, what was that? I run to my mom and said "Smth. is  in my room". Oh, she wanted to sleep, so it was the best way to help me , cuz. I will scream till morning :D So, she switched the light on, but she hasn't seen smth. behind door. "I'm not crazy, I've heard it, I've felt it" . Then I started to search under the chair and I've seen a small brown ball. " Here is that!! Is this bat???" She saw at it, and agreed with me that, probably it was bat. " Isn't it dead? WHY? I don't need dead bat in my room!" Oh, noo wayy.. ( A little story before, When I was a child..I don't remeber probably I attended elementary school oh, even earlier. In our big ( here is computer now) room was flying bat. I dunno but when I was a child I was excited and interested but not scared. Ridiculous. We even made some video of "this" night. So, my mother helped thid bat to fly to home. Bat was so cuuutee ( I dont believe that i've just said it)).

Okay, It was a baat. I started to scream again and jumped on my bed. I didn't now what to do, as I had a chance I run away from my room. My mum joked to me " Oh, it's yours I go to sleep, do whatever you want."..." Oh, thanks mom." But fortunately she helped it. I run to the kitchen and drank some water. My father was angry because I  screamed too loud. And then bat was again in a big room. As previous time ( oh, yeah this day ( when I was a child) bat also flew at first to MY room) Hmmmm....
 So, then my father took the bat into free. Happy end.

 I don't want to sleep anymore.

 I wanted to take some pictures, but i was and still really scared. So, it wasn't a really good idea.


Good night. Watch out bats in yours rooms ;)))

Volunteering

  After camp a lot of thoughts about  my future plans have changed completely. I'm a little bit confused, but I just need a little more time, to figure out with my future. I'm really impressed of volunteers in camp. I'm admiring of them that they left their families, friends and flew away to the completely another country, culture, people, They tried it, they weren't scary to feel it. Isn't it awesome?

 One thing that gave me a lot of food to think about is volunteering.  Earlier when  I participated in flex I've heard a little bit about volunteering, I knew that this is very popular in US. Unfortunately, here I haven't heard a lot about it.I really want to participate in these programs. I want to be a volunteer. I can't sleep I'm really thinking about it. I'm trying to find some programs here ( of course now i can't be a volunteer abroad, But when i'll grow up I will). And  I found some information we have sites, clubs and we can be volunteers and go abroad but we need to pay, not a lot but have to. But I really want to help people and also it will be an awesome experience. Probably I don't want after university to go to work.

What if I will be a volunteer? For couple years or just months, I'll help people or I'll teach them or smth. else. To go to the another country, feel their culture, yes it's hard but isn't it good feeling to see smile eyes of kids which you have helped? I can be just a teacher in a camp somewhere, or just help people. Why do we need all time think about our work? money? Why don't we help other? I think nowadays people think a lot about money, their own happiness and benefits. We've forgotten about others. We can be helpful and it won't spoil your future career or life if you will be a volunteer and you won't sit in dust office. Why have we changed?  We can help, we have to.

Everything is in our hands and heads. We can change world. Money, career aren't everything, I think understanding  that you have helped someone or somebody really appreciate your work and thankful to you are better thing than money. Feelings never will substitute money.
Probably it will be my new and one of the main goal in my future and I hope it will come true.

Home sweet home

So, it was really quickly I haven’t even imagine it. It was an awesome summer, awesome emotions so many memories in my head. I want to continue these feelings But we have to come back to our family and to the reality. Sometimes it’s really hard especially when you love these people and they are smth. more than strangers, they became close friends to you. They shared happiness with you, and you answered them with the same emotions. But I don’t like pessimistic emotions, so let’s talk about smth. else.

First thing that surprised me when I returned back was ME All right here is the first situation which show that “Hey girl you are full of American habits”.

I was sitting in train and woman asked me “What time is it?” It was in Ukrainian, so after couple minutes of thinking how to answer in Ukrainian I said 11.55 ( at first I tried to remember how to say it rightly cuz it’s 11.55 am whatever). She wondered ” Oh, only 5 minutes till 12″.

 Annnnd guess what, I’m like a robot answered YUP :DD “Oh, i wanted to say yes”. It was reaaallllyyyy creepy. You came back from AUBG baby =D No, really I even didn’t think about my answer I just said yup
  : DDD

 Okay, then I was passing the road and one man accidentally pushed me, I’m in Ukraine, but suddenly He said in English ” Sorry” O.o I was shocked and I didn’t wait any minute I turned around and said ” Oh, you speak English ” . God, I just need smn. who speak English, especially after 3 weeks communicating in this language. He was shocked, I was shocked. So, we talked some minutes and say good bye to each other. It’s really strange that I’m so happy when I meet english speaker it’s like your relative . Ahh….I need to understand there is no creepy It just 3 weeks with Americans :D

 Then I was walking in metropolitan and I missed these Americans smile and positive emotions, because here everybody are so pessimistic ( So, I’m like crazy ( actually I am crazy) started to smile and laugh to everyone : DD They were kinda shocked, but I was in American scarf, t-shirt, so probably they understood everything or not

 At home, I just screamed I need SOUUUPPPP and SALO ( pig of fat, Ukrainian national food, VERY tasty) . I was sooo happy that i was eating NORMAL soup, JUST soup : DDD

 I have another Am.habits ( I hope so), but probably i’ll tell about it in next post and i’ll make some list of Dreams which came true in this camp : D

See you, I hope smb. is reading it.

  With this song I associated this camp, and all emotions I'll tell about songs and every moment which are reminding me about camp later, so here the song number one.

A small story about it First time I went through shop and it started to play Hurts-Wonderful Life ( my favorite band, I haven't heard it somewhere on street (i posted this video some posts ago) ), all right next day I was walking through the same shop and it started to play Alphaville – Forever Young ( at first on this song my parents danced on their wedding, at second with this song I associate this camp and I'm starting to remember some moments here and everything. It's really beautiful song))

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Memories or 1st day in a camp

I've written this post when I was in AUBG summer camp, so I'm adding it now :)

 Left only 4 days and I still can’t believe in it. Time run soo fast. I even haven’t imagined that it will be so beautiful ! Probably, sometimes we need to listen to your heart, and go there where you want to.

It was hard to get here, I had a lot of tasks to do before I came here, like documents, visa and others and even if smth. goes wrong we don’t need give up, just you need go through these problems now. But in the end, you’ll have your honor. I’m happy to be here really happy. I can’t remember where I had so much fun, friends, Americans. It’s awesome really awesome. I remember my first day here, it was begin of craziness ( in a good sense).

When I came to Skapto.1 ( dormitories) at first I was confused a little bit, so many people, who is my roommate, where to go, where am I , what are they speaking about? Suddenly I’ve heard a REAL American accent. I’ve turned around and saw American who spoke to smn. ” She must be from America”- thought I . It was a brilliant American accent, and she looked like American. So, it was Katelyn.

On reception I’ve got pass card with number of my room. They told me 1 mean dormitory 1, 3 floor and the rest are number of room. I asked the first American, that i've met where is that ” Oh it’s in another building, over there in the back” , ” of course” I understood where is it, being here first time. I came to door near the elevator, and this Real American offered me  help. Of course I accepted. She looked at number of my room, and said ” Ohhhhhh, you will live with her!! She is very good” and showed me the girl who sat on sofa .I smiled to her, greeted and waved. That how I've Pavlena. :3 Then Katelyn “seriously” looked at me and asked ” Are you good?” =D ” I hope so” answered I. =D

Then she showed me the way to my room. Then I found out that she is a drama teacher. Awwwwww….( I was upset that I haven’t chosen this subject, because I wanted to but I hadn’t.)

Me and my new roommate acquainted with each other in room. And the most ridiculous things are that we both left-handed and we are living in the same room =D I was shocked and happy. Was it happenstance ?

” Twiiiins”. We called each other like that because it’s really ridiculous Then I couldn’t choose my bed and my table I was confused. But I did it. Then we both were interesting who will be our 3rd roommate, and we foundout  that we haven’t only one chair in our room. We asked for chair on the ground floor, And man gave us chair just from the place where he stood. Uhhmmm…okay.

After some minutes we decided to go to the ground floor and acquainted with others. We sat on sofa near Americans, I was so excited Real Americans aaahhh, I can speak with them =D

I was interested who will be my teachers. After first sentence with Katelyn I understood what camp would be like. It was funny dialogue ( or serious) with her about where is she from and so on. “Oh, journalism will be with Adrienne.She is awesome. Oh, she is behind you” by this way I’ve got acquainted and first I have seen my future teacher Adrienne. Others I couldn’t find( On the left side sat very cute American. Presentation skills WHY? I also haven”t chosen this subject Her name is Nichole and she is from Wisconsin. I dunno but I've noticed  some differences between Americans from different states like accent, appearance. She told me about her state that their I don’t remember football? team has hat form of cheese, because there are a lot of delicious cheese )

I was shocked, confused. It was smth. another, strange feelings, Americans. After me and my new Friend decided to go to our room. There we’ve met our neighbor from Montenegro. Stop. I’m really good in geography. I’ve heard any country strange, but this? So, I was confused again. Where is that? Aaaaaannndddd after couple days I’ve recognized It’s Chernogoriya

Dinner time. All students, Americans met in dorm. and we went to University. “Why so far? ” was my first thought. But now It’s not so far, it’s good time for speaking with friends during walking I was scared that I won’t find right way next day, but we’ve met with girl from Greece. And she was second time here , so she was our hero.

Then I can’t remember anything special. But first day was full of emotions and memories.

Is adversity a good master ?

I think nothing happened just like that. Everything has their own ideas. At first u can think that It’s horrible, I’ve got embarrassed and u gonna be upset.

So, Never give up People.

U all have chance to change ur life completely.

Sometimes we want to give up everything and sit alone somewhere, listening to ur favorite music.

But try to think about someone who gave u smile. Someone who always happy and friendly.

As for me I’ve changed my life.

Before I was kinda passive person I thought that everything is bad and nothing gonna change. But Music Helped me.

For a long time, I was dreaming about America. I wanted to chat with Americans, wanted to go to their school just like a simple American girl. Even these Sunday Church schools ( if i right) also some part of American life

I think America is really interesting country, with interesting and warm people. But I understood that it wasn’t possible coz I’m here and I hadn’t any opportunities. I thought that, probably, I’ll have chance to get there when I’ll grow up.

But to my surprise, I had chance to go to America. I’ve participated in Exchange program for students which called FLEX and I was surprised that I’ve passed 3 tours. You know in the begin I couldn’t believe in all it, because there are a lot of intelligent people, but who am I ? But I did it ?? I was amazed and understood there is nothing impossible. We Can if we Want. And after that, we needed to wait for 7 months. Actually it was horrible waiting coz u started to dream that Yaay i will in America, oh noo i’m gonna loose or just, It’s a biiiiig chance for me. This time was really hard, because u couldn’t do any step, u needed to wait.

Yeah exactly it would be awesome to go there and i even haven’t dreamed that sometime it would be possible for me.

But unfortunately or fortunately i haven’t became a Finalist.

But I’m semi-finalist, And i’m proud of it.

Actually, if you became a finalist you need to go to America for 9 month and that mean that you left your school for 1 academic year and when you’ll come back you’ll go to another class. I wasn’t really happy of this idea, because it had to be the last year in my school and i wanted to graduate with my class. But whatever “if i’ll have a chance i’ll do it ” , thought I .

So, at first i was upset But whatever.

U know now I have a beautiful life. My American Dream Came true not in America in AUBG. I’ll graduate with my class which i really love. I’ve tried everything that i wanted before. I’ve spoken with Americans ( I really love them they are so warm and cute), I was in Starbucks ( but it was my dream), i’ve celebrated 4th of July with Americans like American and i can continue this list. I have a lot of friends here from many countries, I can chat with Americans and practice my language skills. Without “falling” i hadn’t this life that i have now.

I haven’t imagined that i’ll have so much fun in AUBG but i have.

Thank you Volunteers ( Teachers)

U made my days and gave me a lot of good emotions.

Believe in yourself ;)

Believe me, you all can change everything . And not always “falling” means Falling, it means that u need to wait and you’ll have better life. You only need to wait and don’t give up.

This is my favorite band , just listen to them and never give up ;)

Dreams?

Hey guys. I’m starting to write my blog.

First what i want to say “Believe in yourself !”

U can do everything if u want to.

Dreams come true! Just not sit all time in the same place. DO smth.!

If u want, u dream about it, so DO it!.

Remember there is nothing impossible.

NOTHING. We r human and we can do everything if we want to.

Be motivate and dont be scary made some mistakes. Coz Adversity is a good master.

Even if u think oh…cmon i’m another, i can’t do it bla bla …STOP …u CAN!

Dreams come true, probably u’ll need more time for it, BUT there is nothing impossible.

Don’t stop dreaming about smth. and ur dream come true soon :D