Queen in people's hearts

Today is 15 anniversary since Lady Diana's death.   You are! my inspiration and idol forever. I always will remember you. We love you!.  She has  made so a lot of things for charity. Diana was open and honest person.  I'm impressed she was a real angel who come back to sky so early. She always loved kids and people. She helped them, she wanted to do that.! I want to follow her steps by volunteering somewhere,  helping to other. She did it with open heart, she spoke with simple people, she helped them.  I don't want to speak about death because there will be mysteries forever. Nobody knows the truth. So, let's think and remember her.

 I can't describe that, but she is someone who really close for me. Probably because of my name i think so, but she is a real Queen. Her smile, her taste in fashion. I really love her. I'm admiring her actions. We can't say exactly what was the true, how was it. But we can say Diana helped people with open heart! Not for popularity no. She did it, she wanted to do that. She was one of the famous people who really wanted to save people.
 She cared about them, when most of people just forgot about many problems. I'm admiring this person. I think she's a beautiful example who we

need to be. How we need to act, think. She had a hard life, full of sad things.
But there was not only the world with press, popularity, there was another side, another world of opportunities to help other. The other side of people who truly admired her and loved.

Diana was an amazing person.  Everything what she had done was honestly. She was honest with people, she hadn't acted as a famous person. She could speak with simple people, touch them, take kids in her arms. Everything. Lady Diana was one of us, simple, honest people.

Now you belong to heaven
And the stars spell out your name...
..And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
     Elton John- Candle in the wind. 

Helping people in need is a good and essential 

part of my life, a kind of destiny.
HIV does not make people dangerous to know, so you can shake their hands and give them a hug: Heaven knows they need it.
Princess Diana 

Carry out a random act of kindness, with no expectation of reward, safe in the knowledge that one day someone might do the same for you.
Princess Diana

She was and I'm sure is a beautiful Mother!
Who truly loved and still loves  her sons.

She is a Queen in people's hearts! 

Good Bye England's rose. 

Rest in Peace <3 

Ukrainian Independence Day!

Happy Independence Day Ukraine!
( I was kinda lazy, so btw. Ind. Day was on 24th of August, just let you know)

However I loved America and England and wanted to live there, but my Motherland always will be Ukraine. I'm proud to be Ukrainian. I love my country and it doesn't matter where I will live, study etc. I'm Ukrainian! It's 21st b-day. It's an adult age. Happy B-day Ukraine!

So, time to celebrate our Independence Day after American. We haven't any BBQ on backyards, but yeah we have fireworks. We decided to go to the park with attractions. There I bought Hot-Dog ( but it was completely Ukrainian) and as normal people I said to my friend " Let's eat it while sitting on grass" It took me some time to explain everything, but i won. How do that? JUST SIT ON GRASS AND EAT UR HOT DOG. Yup, of course some people watched at us, huh as usual, whatever...we were relaxed. I was on slights, it had to be American but it's very simple... btw. I screamed just for fun :D Hmmm...I started to sing country music and shout WHAT"S UP DUDE....

In a way to shop two guys wanted trolled us or so...but i was the first...i just said "What's up, dude? "...They were confused, my friend were shocked that i did that... Welcome back Diana :D...And these guys are " We don't know" and run away from us... Everybody laughed of my actions. Then we met them again " Thank you for English" I was impressed and said " Dude". Guys " Dude". So, like that they know the new American word " DUDE"


That's not all. U know what is ridiculous? I bought coca-cola to remember America while celebrating Indep. Day and then I've noticed the date of manufacture it was the 4TH OF JULY!!! Dude, i'm celebrating Ukrainian Ind. Day now, but my coca-cola was created in American Ind. Day... mysteries are continuing :D Isn't it awesome? 4th of July! Awww....


Good Day Happy B-Day to Ukraine!

1 Month !

Still, still...everything, everyone are in my heart in my head, memory. Probably my poem will tell more than me..i'm kinda sleepy... Sounds poem! :D

Dedicated to AUBG Americans teachers and AUBG campers 2012 

This feeling when you can't stop thinking 

About people who you love

This feeling when you miss people

This feeling when you miss emotions

This feeling when you need some dreamer

Who will say who you are

This feeling when you want to come back

This feeling when you just can’t forget

This feeling when you are looking at photos and smile

Because you can’t cry

This feeling when everything has changed

When you understood how do not be sad

This feeling when you want to return this time

But you can’t do it now

This feeling when you go to sleep remembering them

This feeling when you want again to speak with them

This feeling when they first paid attention on you

This feeling when you thought shame on you

This feeling when it wasn’t a fault

It was only begin of new world

This feeling when you want to continue

You just don’t want to say, it was the end

You want to remember it all time

You are thankful for that, you were smiled

You were yourself , you were happy

Why do we need that …to be apart

This feeling when you miss people

This feeling when you probably won’t meet again

This feeling when you can’t stop thinking

You remember them all, all time

This feeling when you try to continue

This feeling when you smiled every time

This feeling when it was unforgettable minutes

Every time, every smile, every look, every word

This feeling when it was crazy for you

This feeling when you suddenly started to do

This feeling which you’ll never forget

I want to say thank you for all of that

You will remember this time

You will remember them

People who changed that

People who you like, who you can’t forget

People who you are missing

People who you remember in a bad minutes

People whose smiles are in your heart

People whose words are in your brain

People who you don’t wanna forget

People who you will remember and being like them

You won’t be sad no, they won’t like it

Be yourself, changes it’s not bad

You dream about meeting again

You hope it will be, just don’t forget them

People who you will remember in your heart

People who you will share about

This feeling when it stopped

But you thought it will continue forever

We have to move , we have to go

This feeling when remained only one minute

You say goodbye you try don’t cry

You hided your tears but heart cried

You are remembering them still and will

This feeling when every minute

This feeling when every person

This feeling when every place

This feeling when every song

Make you remember them all

This feeling when after these minutes

There remained only photos with your emotions

This feeling when memories make you happy

This feeling when it was unforgettable minutes

This feeling when you want to come back

This feeling which you will remember forever in your head

Just thank you for that

However if you read it, i'm glad to know that. 

Btw. what ridiculous i've understood today is that ...there is some spy...you know i've just told a huge secret about my twin who acting now in Broadway and makes my dream come true...how suddenly i found a theatre! dude THEATRE who invited to play there.... i've just started to think seriously about it after a GREAT INSPIRATION in a camp, so here is that..i'll show them what the drama is :DDD But I have to call them and say that HEEY I"M OVER HERE take me to the THEATRE. 

Kinda figure out with my future like Uni and so on...it's too complicated to study abroad..but who said that i'm searching for easy ways? 

And just let you now...I really feel like the only one originally Ukrainian who acts like American...huh..

And some days ago I passed a test simple test..and it said that my way of communicating is kinda American..probably there was some influence on it..Hah..I  have no idea WHICH influence. 

Seems like conclusion of everything what happened and what made me happy and still making by remembering all these stuff in my head ...And just let u know...i'm gonna put it on my diary so i'll watch at it every day during my last year of school..huh...i'm gonna be still ME in school ...:D
And yeah it took me years to make that... 

Surprise or what to do in the middle of August

You know, it's freaking cold here. It's like 14*C.  Do you think it's quite normal temperature in August, definitely not.  Everyone are wearing warm clothes, jackets which we usually put on in the late autumn but not in August, guys what's happened to world? All right saying bye bye summer, and bye bye all my new clothes from Bulgaria cuz. there is many of them for summer weather, like t-shirts and dress... ah..dress i have put on it only once, being in camp, when we gave a presentation of our classes, it was almost the last day :-\ , Yup, I wanted to be now somewhere like CA or so, wearing flip-flops and sunglasses, buy a cup of coffee in Starbucks and walk around the streets. Yeah, even if it's VERY hot, ugh...i need summer and sun, so i'm gonna taking sunbathes in my dreams :D Okay, as usual on holidays i'm gonna to bed in the morning then wake up after lunch or so, it's summer! Btw. i'm living like in American time cuz. when it's night here there is day, I even can easily count what time is in a state right now.

 All right I was sleeping as usual it was smth. like 2pm aaaaaaaaaannnnnnndddd, phone ringing wake me up...Who was that? -Teacher :) Yup, 'glad' to hear that, aannnd guess what, which one haha..english teacher oh yeaahhhh.... :D I'm kinda confused btw. i was sleepy, and she asked haven't I forgotten school and english? I have dreams about school almost every night, ugh " awesome". And i have practiced language for a month ( in a camp...awww camp ^.^...and at home with others Americans) so it's kinda impossible in my case. Okay, she wanted that I have gone to school the next day...in the morning!!! For what? You will know later. Awesome, really :D  I've thought, actually I hoped, she asked smn. also to come to her, I couldn't be the only one haha I can. I was the only only, I really like how I began my adaptation to school "almost". I put on my favorite American scarf, actually it was the right decision cuz. It was windy outside sooo...why not? And ugh...i had to tell her EVERYTHING we started with how i found this camp, like how i've sent e-mails to camp director,how i found another group in my country to travel with, how I alone opened visa and so onnnnnnn....

We talked, talked, talked, talked....actually she said that my character is shy and close and that evreyone are thinking that i'm pessimistic closely person ( it was seriously, not like you Americans like to say everything in a contrary :D) Ahhhhaaa...i'm pessimistic when i'm screaming, telling and smiling, LAUGHING like a psycho when i told about camp, cuz. i've received SO many emotions and memories that i'm gonna keep them by heart forever!!! Really, i was laughing, yup,  when i was younger..oh ..time time we gotta old so fast :D i was kinda shy, but who wasn't, the main idea who am i now! All right forget about it...i was so open and strange but ugh...why am i strange i only packed a unicorn to my luggage before going to US?, that she asked do  I in some sect, cuz. people usually have behavior like mine. Of course, I am...I'm in a sect with my unicorn and husband Ernest Hemingway...what did you thought about...butt tss.. do not tell smb. Q.q  So we talked and talked, talked and talked....in conclusion, guess what, the main reason was to help her to print some papers for school. No, it's not bad, but ugh..it's like volunteering for me, for her i dunno xDDDD

According to expectation I have to:
1. print some documents at first type them and then print 8 papers.
2. write a report about camp ( as a creative " closely pessimistic" person i'm trying to write it in a poem form
3. make a video, presentation about camp, that later future students could see who was I  :3
4.  find some new tasks for city competition of english language
5. take to her my diploma just she could see it ( there are American signatures and their names awww..^.^... :D)
6. take my works from creative writing that she could check it, and see my level...so serious ...level :D
and sooo oonnn.. with what i've already figured out.

Then I was full of emotions, haha ...i've called my friends and told them some news...i was screaming for all bus, no i'm just started to speak SO loudly  :3 haha..smn. turned around on me and  with pessimistic face said to "friend" how am yelling bla bla...sorry i forgot now i have to try say to myself slower, stop....i'm like a robot speak loudly...sorry :\ whatever i like it, btw. i was with American scarf haha...sooo...they understood ...me

In evening I've talked to my friend from a camp in skype awwww....I miss them , I MISS! And ugh...i still remembering every thing, and ridiculous situation which happened to us.... Then I called again to my teacher cuz. I promised to , and said, "I'm like  a communicative person found to you more volunteers to help, and i've figured out with time and so"..." Oh, now I see some changes in you" ...ugh...dtw. I LOVE my school and will miss it...but gonna talk about it later, now holidays, enjoy...cuz. i know i will be a real ZOMBIE during studying U.u

U know after talking for 2 hours in english with my friends, uhm...i was sitting in a room where were my parents, i was searching for smth. in laptop thinking about my stuff...how suddenly on TV started some music video. i dunno which one but it sang like jigalo and hahaha....gosh...i started to speak in English " Oh, we played it in a camp" .....STOP russian... God I started to speak english just like that, i've told my thoughts in english that i understood i need to speak another one that nobody here speak English... It's "normal" yeah...

 After-American-camp adaptation, situation №4578359745 ....

P.S finally gonna cook tomorrow guacamole ...small portion at first.
I'm feeling that someday i'll write a book about my life, nothing special has happened but i will tell it so long with details...haha..a real journalist :D
 See ya...

Day 6 (Last),dude

 You know I like my chicken fried
Cold beer on a Friday night
A pair of jeans that fit just right
And the radio up...
     Yup, it's country dude, as  I mentioned I like this music, we sang it with others dudes..awww..it was so American, I found more lovers of this music..yyyaaayyy.

       Okay, I'll do it dude. I'm kinda lazy to write, cuz. I've got  tired, but I have to write about these American dudes. Huh, as usual I came too early, and had to wait for others.Then Americans came yaaayy...one American started to fry sausages on grill ...aaaaaa sausages made by American. oh WOW,, hahha,, i'm kidding. And we decided to play volleyball U.u ... I'm not really good at it but I hit ball not bad I did it!!! hehe...I just needed practice so we played it...I was feeling like I've returned to camp, we've played it on sand without shoes, with Americans awww,,:D  Now. i'm feeling more sure about volleyball. I'll hit it dude. At first we've played simple volleyball  and we've seen that it wasn't really good idea, cuz. we're not perfect players. So, we changed the rules, actually it was our game, but we had to explain it to American part. The idea is that you have to hit the ball and if you haven't catched it you sit into the circle.. actually even Americans know that , cuz. we've played it in a camp. Whatever I liked it, I didn't want to play volleyball cuz. I don't really like it, but later I started to love it.. haha..now I love volleyball ... how fast things changed,huh :D But i'm still baseball lover sooo...

    Then, ohhhhhhhh...you know what....i've tried, i've seen this American ball for football, not soccer, football ^.^... my dream came true, yyyaaayy... i've not  just seen that i even tried to catch and throw, ohh Ameriiicaaa.... I'm happy. Then we had smth, like supper with junk food., we've eaten chips, fried sausages, bread, mayo ( oh, i'm lover of mayo and ketchup, haha.. don't hit me... being in a camp we hadn't really good food , so i always put there some mayo and ketchup just to make it better, but after camp these stuff are reminding me about these moments  in a camp , so why not? ) and some others.

  We've talked with Americans dudes ( oh, yeah you've noticed i always use this word) made photos, and were happy. I was as usual shy...aha..as American said..that Americans always say opposite meaning.. soo yeah i'm a shy person. Didn't you know that, huh?  Why do not be happy as for me? I have no siblings, no pets, no crying babies even no trash...i'm happy and enjoy my life.

   Then we were sitting like Americans oh gosh, everything like American haha..whatever ...Oh, yeah I've learned new word... you gotcha ... gotcha dude, i've played football duuuudee... Oh my gosh xD
I enjoyed communicating with Americans so sooo much dudes.  I will miss them aww...:\ EVERYONE!With who I will be crazy? I need Americans to be crazy hehe.. i forgot i'm shy.

 And aaaaaaaaaaaaa...i've tried marshmallows aaaaa...we made it like American of course it wasn't like American,  cuz. ours are smaller and just another, btw. at least i've tried it!!!  I've fried marshmallow and then put it on cookie on which was a piece of chocolate then marshmallow and then another cookie Aaaaaaa...It's really AWESOME and so tasty, i haven't expected that, it's like not really sweety but tasty. Aww..amazing!
Why am I not American? I even can't do it like Russian speaker can, like this letter R but russian R and you have to say it long like rrrr... not like  uhr American nope like spanish some times rrrr soo..most of Americans can't do that but we can, hahaha..but I from my childhood couldn't do that never :DDD No, i was born in wrong place...hehe As Erica said I was born in Indiana and I'm her neighbour. Oh, what i wanted to say, yup. This week 2 American dreams came true yyaaayy...
I've added new dreams to my list. I've tried marshmallows like American, and i've tried REAL American football, not bad, huh?

1 week not a lot , but it was unforgettable, thank to ALL  dudes for this week... it was such a pleasure to speak to ALL of Americans, and staying myself, communicating in English, understanding them, singing, playing, everything, It was really cool..and I will repeat again I really love American mentality for their warm character, friendly and positive soul, with who you can speak and smile everytime. Just meet and hug to this person, smile and have a nice day and nice mood after that. I love it. Will meet again when I will a volunteer, sometimes I will happen...aaaannndd I'll make a BIG tour of US ... I'll begin with Indiana, then Michigan, my favorite Wisconsin, Alaska cuz. I was interested in this state long  before the camp, then California woohhooo CA... and I'm sure this tour will increase...
As I promised photos...

 Most of us, not all...

 This marshmallow thing with cookies n  chocolate ... first try!

(With Dale, krutoy  chuvak (cool dude) 

 Marshmallows ... no comments about marshmallows

AWESOME week!

Day 5 ( pre-last)

Today, we last met in our building, but tomorrow we should meet on a beach. Where we will play volleyball( ahhh...I'm not good at it :\ I just need some practice to be better but whatever, it has to be fun), and probably, i'm not sure exactly we'll try to make marshmallows ( if we will, my dream ( small) will come true again) but i dunno about it nothing, we'll we do that or not, but i wish we will :D We'll make a camp fire and we'll see, cuz. i dunno even where it will be, actually i know but last time i was there i was smth. like 6 haha... so we'll see, i'll try to find the right way, in whole i understood where is that, but exactly, we'll see...

  We had a lot of fun today, we played some games.. oh yeah I forgot yesterday we've played a game which called Telephone i think you know what is that, you just to each other some sentence and in the end we'll see how it sounds :D It was funny yesterday the sentence was Cat likes to sit on a head ( I don't remember) and in the end we had smth. like what is plant or  no i don't remember cuz. we played it twice sooo.. :\

Btw.  today we played ahh..i dunno how it called but we've made some word and need to say to one person from opposite team and this player had to show that to his team, and they guessed.. It was sooooo funny, cuz. we had to show, zombie who played soccer,  wizard cooked pancake, cow rolled in dust, cowboy danced ballet and more more... I showed squirrel who drove the car :D

Before that we sat in the circle and then first person say I'm going to America. And i'm gonna pack that the next person repat all this and add her own word and so on. We have packed alligator,tooth brush n paste, mother-in-law :DD, money, camera, microphones, perfume, bear spray :D , i've packed Unicorn :DDDD

Excited about tomorrow, also we made some photos today, but tomorrow we'll make more, cuz. it will our last meeting :( So fast, why so fast ?  I will miss everyone, they are so funny crazy Americans :DD
 ( Americans are not crazy, but they also say it..soo..i have to say that i'm crazy too but i don't say that but i'm crazy :DD) I will miss greeting with Steve like Hey dude, what's up ? :D I will miss this dude. And others too of course, many of them I like, I like these Americans, they are really nice people.

And we also teached one American our words, he's awesome... he say kruto ( cool) :DD And uhm.. today he greeted like Hey chuvak, ty krutoy ( Hey dude, you're cool) :DD Like me always greeted hey dude :D
Uhh...wait for tomorrow..

Day 4 ( New song)

 Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayy, it happened!!! But we'll talk about it later ;)
 I had to go out from internet, so i had some time to prepare myself.. and in internet suddenly appeared new song, new Hurts song, which  I waited so loooong sooo loooong. AAaannnd my internet stopped work. Yeah, as usual :\

  Okay, today before everything started Americans, we were sitting on stairs. Aww..stairs, America :DDD I've greeted with everyone, hehe..today I've decided to wear American flag-scarf and American flag- t-shirt :D

Today, we taught Americans how to say some words in Russian xDD No, that was fine, they are Americans but said it really cool, Kruto ( cool) :D Then we talked with Americans, ahhh...I've seen some photos from vacation, then talked to other Americans.  So, tomorrow will be the last day but on the saturday we should go on the beach..hehe..but with Americans. I really like to talk to them..aww...

 Okay.......ta-daaamm.. NEW SONG  which makes me cry all the time... these words make you feel the song, you understand listening to it. Marvellous!!!
 The song name is Under the bridge, just try to listen to THESE words to feel them and to understand!! And smth. previous When I was in a camp, I've attended creative writing lessons, cuz. I love writing, and we usually listen to some calm music and write ...and once it was HURTS! It shocked me, cuz. I so missed them and love them. And their songs are really calm with sense, touchable, so..I felt it and started to write a poem.. and it was about girl who was stood on the bridge, she was alone, she was disappointed I've described every touch, feeling, that everyone could feel that and then she jumped from this bridge into the river, it was so cold like her heart, everywhere was silence, and river was lively, it worried like her heart, so after that she's part of another world not this one full of undevoted air. And NOW we can hear NEW song HURTS song, under the bridge of course it's completely another story but, it reminded me of my poem , and just camp, a coincidence again?